heloo. went for school field trip earlier on. met them all at engineer school and off we go to far east square. boo. dun even knw wats soo special over there. lol. wake up early in the morning to go dere?! sian lor. ended everything at 11. and off to meet him. waited fr him till 1230. in the meantime, did a lil shopping.bought two mask and hair theraphy thingy. headed to clarke quay wen he arrived. and sooo...i alr knw why he wanted to meet me. i hate it wen he talk abt it. but then again,of course he wud tok abt it, sooner or later. he is my bf,of course he would mind ant this. tapi, ive told him even befre we were togedr. so he cnt blame me :((( and guess wat, he knw whu is the culprit/jerk/animal/beast i was talking abt. he stayed late night just to research on tht. i think, thts wat he said and i believe. idk if thts a good thing or othrwise. mmg mira nak org tlg mira, gain my confidence back in guys, have a better future and stuff. but then again, im scared. mungkin betol ape yg dia kate. Allah tlah beri dia petunjuk. tappi...mira takot. mira takot kalau dia betol2 akan amek tindakan. once tht happen, i can frgt abt being happy again. once tht happens, mak dengn drg semer akan gaduh besar. dia akan masuk jail. hidup mira akan kecoh. and..i really dun wann tht. just recently, family kita rapat. tkder gadoh. ni kalau gaduh lagi, mira akan hilang azrul, abg, my aunt and uncle. im only left with mum. and i dont wannt tht. mira nak hidup mira yg sekrg. To be honest, i dont care abt wat he did to me alr. maybe because it have happened to me alot of times? idk. wen i meet him nowadays, mmg perasaan benci tu ader. but perasaan nak balas dendam, revenge is gone. i think i shud just give up on the revenge part. biar dia buat ape yg dia nak. i beleive tht he will face the consequences , soon. bukan di dunia tapi di akhirat. i dont have the intention of telling my family. im scared like rly scared. :((