You're amazing.

{we can never run away frm judgemnt/}

Wednesday9:58 AM

hmm. the other day, his mum called me. because she cant gt thru him. as his phone is on silent mode. i answered. not expecting and knowing tht his mum would call me asking his werabout. uhuh. his mum voice sounded exactly the same like my firnd. so confident much, i thought it was her. unfortunately no. i was wrong. and guess whut. i remmebr saying 'ape kau nak'as i thought my kwn whut. sekali mak dia:( and i did laugh, while i was on the phone. phck me. i shouldnt have laugh. i mean just because i LAUGHED, i have been misjudged. i regretted laughing. but i regreted answering the phone, more. because i answered it, bf have been scolded. by his mum on the phone . and dad the next day. he also got reminded by his past, again. haish, felt so guiltyy at tht point of time. the next day wen he gt scolded by his dad, i became one of the topic. his dad called me a CHEAP women. did u all read tht?:( no, u all didnt read it wrongly. uhuh. i have been labelled a cheap women by my boyfriend's step-dad. i deserve to be angry right? :( i have never thought tht i would gt tht labelling. i mean, like seriusly, it sucks to be judge, just by our laughter. fr godness sake , there are so many girls out there whu laugh like tht. are all of them cheap? no fcking no kan? then why am i one? :(( omgg i rly pity my mum. like seriusly i pity my mum. her daughter have been labelled a slut, prost, and a fcking cheap women. frm her friend, best frn and her bf stepdad. sumpah mira sedih org panggil mira mcm gitu. i dont find it fair calling me tht jst bcause i laugh like tht :((( macam gitu teruk org pandang mira. huh. fck. self-judgemnt suck, really. but dont think thy kol me tht, im gg to change. no. i dun luve in this world just to fcking impress pple :(( watever. i know whu i am. im not a cheap women. omggggg. but thankful & grtful enuf my bf defended me. i mean, he stnd up fr me. *Jangan nk jadi bpk sundal ah kutok matae aku tu mcm.. Kaw takde hak pon la sial!! Kaw tak tawu prangai dyr pon sial!!* - thts frm his tweet. i guess he have said a few word to defend me. i mean he should:(( he rly know whu am i kn. i dont care how his family gonna look down on me. i know myself best. i mean, judging someone from their laughter and dressing is so no awesome. i hope bf wont look down on me :( he have never look down on me. im confident abt tht. haiszx. life sucks wen u gt unpleasant and untrue comment abt urself:((((

{random updates/}

9:32 AM

hello everyone. sho long never post again eh eh. hahahah, blame android for not having a blogger apps! then life would be much more easier whut kn? hek. k. hmm. . lets talk about .... ok just gonna update on random date. went shopping wif bf the other day. we went to collect our pay. and went to bugis street. bf bought 4 things in total. and i bought 4 thing in total too. and noww, one of the jacket da koyak sikit. sebab.... me, i think. hahahaha. me so cute ? no yes :) hahah shutup. oh the day befre , we ate at seoul garden frm 530-9. hehehehehk. ok. 7 october-went fr tuisyn as usual. bf went for his ns check up. like fianlly. hahah. then he went to bugis to collect his namekad. met him and shilah at cck. went to met daniel as he book out on tht day. went to rasa2 and fazerey join in. like finally i saw the three of them getting togeder. hahaha. a pity his gf cant tag along. uhuh. went to shilah hse after tht. lepak till 1030. and off we went home. ok gg to strt pouring my harts out-next post. uhuh.

{my slideshow fr bf sho weird. no likey/}

12:25 PM

my slideshow turns out so plain. idk wer my wordings went to. idk wer my effect went to :((((

{wts happen on 5th oct/}

11:28 AM

here's wat happen during our 2nd month.. nyeh. okay. we wished each other around 12 plus am. yes, we were still togeder at tht timing. he wish me followed by his sweet-talks. heheheh, thst wats i love most abt him. sweet-talks rly does make me feel appreciated. khek. and so, we spent our time till 12:22. wen the last bus left him. we waited till 12:40. still no sight of the bus. pity him pls. why must he stay so far. how wonderful it is f we stay near. haiszx. and so, gave him mny fr cab. he sent me under my blck. i bring home his shopping stuffs. and he changed his pant into shorts. puzzled much? yes. he say he gonna jog home. i thought he meant till gombak. so i sum sort believe him. an hr later, he txt me saying he is home. and i literally believed him. and he claim he is tired and wanna sleep after washing up. and i believed it. at tht point of time, its 130 alr. and i was alr fast asleep aftr sending hima good night txt. at 3, i received a txt tht he walk home. :( can u believ it? he walk home. from bukit batok to kranji. and finally took a cab home. i was really angryy at him at tht point of time. later on, at 11, we plan to meet each othr to go fr a swim. but, somehow or rather, i had to sabotage his plan. i thought i wanna help mum. wen i told him abt it, and cancel our plan, he was really angryy wif me. like fcking angryy. told azrul. and he said, its better fer me to meet him. and so, i kept aside my ego and called him countless times. no answer. read his twitter. and im touched. like really. as he have actually walk his way home just so we have money to survived on the next dayy. yes, im veryy touched fr tht. omgg he spent two freaking hours walking alone. haisx. maner tak sayang dia ni. msg him pleading him to mit me. wen he finally agreed, im sooo happy. veryyy. nyeh. met him. he did a traffic report. and off to jurong fr swimming. yes, he is still angryy wif me. but he still love me too. hehehheheheh. went fr swim from 3-630. and ok, he very bad can? no yes? yess. he drown me alot of times :( nyeh. k i make it sound so bad. hehhehek. and there was this one momnt wer he was really sweet. like verry sweet. we stop in the middle of lazy poll wer the water drop from above. hugging me, he wish me happy 2nd monthsarry. yes, i like tht mommnt alot. and he make me love him alot more. hehheheheheh. went for dinner. and off to chinese garden. ceh tht was my first time in the garden. scarry can. hek. and spent our time there till 1030. went bukit batok and lepaks till 12. and yes, we doesnt need a lot of money to have a grt monthsarry. nyeh, he prove tht. hek. and i feel really bad fr ruining is mood earlier on. but i know, he frgive me alr. hehhehehehek. and so happy wen he say. uh. oh, he said tht he still not sick and tired of me. hehehehehe. love him very much. yay yay

Labels: thanks fr sucha sweet bf

{happy 2nd monthsarry dearest boyyfriend/}

10:49 AM

heloo readers! 5th of october is our 2nd monthsarry. nyehehehe.happy much as we are alr 2 mnths togeder. and trust me, i rly love my boyfriend. yes, no doubt 2 mnth is sucha short month. but i guess in these two month i hv know how sweet he can be, how ego he can get and how much he really love me. aftr all, he have done a lot of things which prove how much he really love me. i remember getting into fights wif him a couple of time. thts wen his ego came in. to be honest, he have gt quite a big ego. and i dun blame him for tht. well, everyone have ego. its just abt how we gonna manage our ego. im luckyy enuf i can control mine. i did gave in to him, to this relationship. well, one of us hve gotta be the one saving this relationship. and i know,he have done his veryy best too. and he have cried a couple of times for this rs, and no doubt, i have cried a couple of time due to this rs too. no its not emo. i guess its because we are getting insecure or we are really scared of losing each other. or maybe, yes he did cry because he is hurt by my attitude and words. im lucky and happy enuf tht he is still as sweet and faithful as always even aftr two months. yes, i dare say tht he have been faitful to me all this while. i trust him tht much. and i dare say tht he is like not all the other guy tht ive mt /known. he have prove to me, tht there are still good,promising and reliable guys in this world. i wont say he is a perfect guy. he smokes. he drinks. he flirts. but all tht dont matter to me, as long as he know tht he is in a rs and he still respect me as his gf. thts all i ask of him. i know we can make our fantasy into a reality, soon, 2016. and to be honest, ur making me really looking forward to it. nyeh. love you veryy much, dearest boyfriend :))))

Labels: semoge kita berkekalan hingga ke selame2nya, ya Allah

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Saturday4:11 AM

oh oh oh, brother like know abt me and bf alr. like only ah. argh, me dun know :( hari itu kan, dia sidndir. tapi kan, dia nya sindir macam lain dari yg lain ah. ceh. tak kuase ah nak bpbal pasal abg. ahhahahaha. k next. wat did i do during hols? ohhh, tuisyn tuisynn.. i need moneyy real badly. my bill 200. tsk! mcm businesswomn,hek. and since its holidays, have been meeting bf more often now and then. and thts awesome. yay. ohh, went swimming the othr dayy with bf. fr a short two hour only uh uh. before tht, met his aunt for malaleuca thingyyy. oh, i dun care, i want more swimming sessions please. i have lost touch in swimming too. soo sad. booo. and lately, both me and bf dont have any mny. bleah. kita hidup dengn duit tabung. boo. ceh. ah takper. masing2 gaji nak dekat . amin.

{one altitude, with boyfriend :))/}

3:32 AM

hi hi. time to update! yay. uh where shud i start? okay how my holidays is comimgg along... nyehheheh. :) me soo love me holidayszx. hehk. ok stop. ah wat i do? i frgt:( ah watver.strt with work. ok goo. found a job for both bf and muself. nyeh so good and luckyy me can gt work togeder. woo. and oh, i never expeck my family to allow me to go to work lei. well, firstlyy because its a bar. yuck alcohol yuckksss. and next, its 5-5. hmm. thy dont love me alr:(( ceh. merepek. ah da bagus aku boleh keje. and sooo, met up wif bf and his fren at adm. and off to work.. one good thing abt workingg there is everyonee so friendlyy. except one of them, tak boleh tgk aku senang. ceh. and so , eh wait, i never say work at where. ahhahah, important. tsk. we work at one altitude level 63 lei! heheheheeh. k. tsk. and, ohh omgggg i saw farid kamil eh eh eh. omgggg kan?! khekhe, depan2 mate. wah tak rugi and tak menyesal aku g keje. heheheh. and oh, i strted being busy at around 8pm:( da kene pegang alcohol. yuckzx. and oh, kene marah on the spot. tapi, lepas tu, dia mintak maaf. nyeh. suke aku kalau org tue mintak maaf. hehehehk. and omgg, our break at 1am. can die sia. mcm nak mati aku tahan lapar. nyeh.strted packing around 3 plus. and bf drank on tht dayy. tak sukeeeeee. boo. tapi ape boleh buat kan. sekali sekale. tsk. jangn minum hari2 sudah. bleah. and headed to macd fr breakfast and went home around 10 am. had some talking session with bf befre tht. nyeh. balik je..jeng jeng jeng. next post. pfft.