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{happy 4th mnth of knowing each other.hehehhe/}

Tuesday9:15 AM

helooo readers :)) finally blogging. yes because im sooo happy heheheheh. today is the 23rd of november. the day before, bf suprised me at school. heheheh althou he does it alot of times, i never get tired of his suprises. i really like it wen he came all the way from woodland to temasek poly just to fetch me from school. isnt tht sweet? yes it is. hehheheheheheh, and he even went to bedok with me. to fulfil my desire wanting to eat mee soto! hehehehk. after tht, we went to spent our time together. yes we did. just by talking, he have really made my whole night. i remmebered my laugh conqured the whole cabin of the mrt. yes. being with him will really make me forget everything. he dont need to do anything. just by sitting there by my side, i will feel really blissful. yes. im not exaggerating, thts wat i truly felt. hehehehe. headed to our ususal place and had our talks over there.yes, we talked on all random things and did all those random things. until he talk abt tht jerk. yes he reminded me of him. and naturally all the flashback will haunt me. i cant blame him. i mean, tht jerk will forever be in my mind aniways. i strted crying. yes, i will always cry wen it come to tht jerk. sigh. i will be a weak lady again. forever not me wen im reminded of tht jerk. bf let me cry , at tht time. he hug me really tight, and console me. tht point of time, i know tht he is truly the right guy fr me. he NEVER regretted being with me. no matter how many time i breakdown because of tht jerk, he NEVER get tired in consoling me. waatever he said just now really made me realized tht there is sill a kind soul in this world. no matter how pathetic and hurtful my jouney was, he was sent from Allah to make my life a better one. insya'Allah this is not a temporary feeling. he told me just now tht ive known the meaning of true life. and he will be here with me, together we will destry tht jerk.thts wat i have been asking for since the past 4 years. finally, here a guy tell me tht he will do it for my sake, fr the sake of my dignity, fr the sake of my happiness. how can i not be contented? how can i not feel appreciated? and when someone who hve ONLY know me for 4 mnths, told me that the real me still havent occur after all this while, how can i not feel tht he is the right one? even my mum dont know the real me. watsmore, someone whom i just shared my life with? yes i was truly shocked wen he said tht. the real me have long perished, eversince my grandpa left me. eversince, i lost IT. eversince, i know guys dont respect me. eversince, i have lost my trust in certain guys. eversince my family favour tht jerk more than me. eversince, everything in my life didnt turn out perfectly. even i dun know who is the real me. but now i know why ALIFF HAIDAR was sent in my life. now i know why i ACCEPTED him to be part of my life. now i know why i have NEVER EVER REGRETTED being with him. insya'Allah this will be the last session ever im gonna talk abt tht jerk, cry abt tht jerk. its not worth it at all. im sucha lucky girl to have sucha an understanding and never-give-up boyfriend. sayang aliff haidar sentiase. :)) hehehhehehe. and btw, today is our 4th months knowing each other. two more weeks before our 4th mnthsarry . ehhehehehe sukeeee.

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