And so.....this is my aliff syg hehhe Hi readers :) and so here is a recap of my days spent wif my boyf. he finally booked out on a saturday (sigh) at 2pm. fetched him from yck mrt. and he have received his camp's pay. Alhamdulilah. and so he went home to change his clothes. while on our way there, he saw quite a few of his frens. lucky him :) waited fr him under the block while he changed and stuff. and in 45 min, he is all ready and smell nice alr hehehhe. k la info extra je. headed to ktph as he is sick. ya he is. idk, he suffered something like heat stroke? :( idk whts he suffering la :( but will continuosly vomit/feeling giddy :( kesian much. and so.....our whole saturday was spent there hahahhaha. nehmind la. and he mc till monday :) headed to pasar mlm, and gt my ayam madu nyum nyum hek. and headed to gombak and we lepak-ed there till 1am. at tht mmnt, i dun even ffel like gg back home. i feel like staying outside and just spent my time wif him. but he needa rest at home :< met him at 1 the next day and we managed to finally have a movie date. finally. seriusly....when was the last time we watch movies togeder? :(( seriusly when eh..... ya seriusly omg i forgt? lemme think..... is it twilight? ok no. new year eve? no. alvin chipmunk? hais lupe la :( the reason why i frgt is because i used to update abt all these at tweeter and leave my blog hanging. and now...serve me right. and naother reason, bf always keep the tickets :( and let me keep the tickets which is cerita merepek punya :( and so we watched this means war . heheheheh this movie is super awesome. yes it is. pls watch everyone. befre tht, i was actually angry and merajuk wif bf . abe bf ignored me and let me walk alone far frm him. :( then dlm wayang, i never talk to him. then kan dia kan sweet and pandai amek hati. hheehhehe he even bought chcolates. heh mane tak sayang dia. and i swear watching movie with the one u love is one of the awesome feeling u will ever have :) headed fr our early dinner at chicken rice shop :) and syg blanja me famous amos yayyy. heheh and initially he said tht he wont be sending me home. as he is on mc, if he is gt caught outside then the consequences would be......ya. but heheeh he stil sent me home. hehehehehhe happy_gir@forever.com.isme. reached home around 7pm. when i realised we havnt snap any pictures fr the day :( quickly rushed down and have our snapshot taken. hehehe. and oh so he needa booked in by 12 tmrw. and im supposed to go to work. but.......i didnt. well i feel tht i should meet him and sent him to his place and make sure im able to meet him for the last time before he boom out next one and half week. you all knw wwht? he'll be gg to tekong fr fcking 7 days. know wht tht means? no txt nor calls frm him . sigh fck our life pls? :((( thts why i skipped work and met him. even thou fr a short 1-2 hr. its worth it.

hi its friday night now. and wat more can i say? today sucks. why? gt scolded regarding my life early in the aftrnn. fck me. no matter how stupid am i, dont worry, i will still somehow manage to carve out a career fr myself k? fck la with all these high expectation. i know i will still be able to have a bright future. trust me k. aniway wat suck more wen bf syh cant book out today. hais. fck. i only hav sat wif him. fvk omg yes this suck alot

hi , met up wif her the other day. had a great chat wif her. alah aku semue great la. hahahah. am managing her blogshop now. and Alhamdulilah da maju balik hehehe .

Hi readers :)) its wednisday night now. yes wednesday is ending soon, glad much, spent my weekendsw wif my bf. obviusly hahaha. lemm talk abt my weekends okie. on friday, received a kol frm bf at two. saying tht he is still at discovery centre and will onlly mit me at 4. and asked me to mit him straight away at bugis. yes i did went there. but no him. only danil. booo. had to listen his stry fr 1 and half hr. bf still havent reached eventhou its nearly 5:30. txted bf but no rply :(( then daniel say nak g starbuck. so ya la obviusly i followed him kan. sekali kan HEHHEHEHEHEH BF HUG ME FRM BEHIND HEHEHH rupenya ni due pakat nak buat suprise. ehheheheh cute la . then headed to do his name kad. ate at zam zam. while daniel went to fetch shilah frm work.then thy went fr bussiness appointmnt wif hazlee. while i and shilah headed to bugis street. hais saw lots of peterpan top and skater dress and maxi skirt.:((after tht around 10:30pm, headed to shisha. no i dont shisha. i just went along la. was at there till 1? yes :( hahahahhaha sbb bf tak bilang pun d akul 12, time balik. hais. txted mum saying tht i slept at my kwn hse. amazingly tak kene marah? 0.0 hahhaha bagus jugak eh. heh. went to waterfrnt wif bf, daniel, shilah and hazlee. and daniel shilah went home halfway sbb....shilah buat perangai? uhuh. so ya daniel sent her home. and had to layan hazlee stry. hahhahaha he wnet home latr at4? yes. then both bf and i stayed till 5:30. headed home thru cab wif bf :)) happy me. met each othr again kul 6pm. :) went to chevron fr his ns stuff. headed fr dinner at imm. and the ramen we ordered taste exactly like maggie curry :((( seriusly.... pft. headed to giant to buy barang2 ns bf. hehehhehe i can actually imagine myself as his wife. then g pasar same2. hehehheheh. & ya as usual, gaji one day da abes *poof* magic. spent a cute one hr quality time wif bf aftr tht. hais love him bnyak2. on sunday, had my tuisyn. receive dmy pay. met bf, hazlee and fazery at ys and headedto amk fr makan, befre he book in, hais cepat kan da sunday? seriusly spent one less than 2 days mane cukup. hais. i dun feel sastified at all...... hais. he took taxi frm amk and went fr camp. while i wnet home wif them. hais perjalanan balik tanpa bf is fck boring. bt nehmind. friday is coming sooon. two days mira. two days

Hi everyone imma happy girl now. hehehehhe. why? because its alr the 16th of feb:)) isnt it fast? heheheh yes it is. it seems like just yesterday i sent bf fr ns. just yesterday i went shopping with him fr his ns stuff. glad tht the days are passing very quickly. hehehe soon, without us realizing, he have ended his 2 yrs ns life :) hehehe. im very excited to mit him tmrw:( u all know how it feels not being able to mit him fr two weeks? yes tht awful feeling. its really awful. the everyday go work-go home routine without meeting him sucks, alot :( hais. but its okie. im meeting him later, finally after 2 weeks. :) im really happy as we managed to talk on the phone every single day. even thou just a short chat, we still managed to. and im rly glad and contented fr tht. i thought he ns alr, cnnt talk otp :( hahahah. and oh!!! i received a letter frm bf! hehehehhehe. this boy actually mailed it to my hse fck hahahaha gile. hahah lucky my uncle told me. hehe. and his writting never changed one bit. heh. and obviusly is a sweet letter la. come i tell u all abit wht he wrote. * InsyaAllah lepas i da habes ns, kita tunang k? tunggu tau. walaupun i baru masuk, i betul2 rindukan u. i rase hidup i tak comple. i rase kehilangan. i tak sabar nak jumpe u. nak habeskn ns lepas tu tunang ngn u. * hehehhehe k la cukup. ade lagi la. tkkn nak type semue hahahah. hais boy_sweet@forever.com la dia. hahah k la i shud turn in now. gonna look forwrd to an awesome weekend

heloooo everyone. last week, met up wif my favurite makcik ehhehehe. k not makcik la. this most bising mak nenek. heheh. met her at jurong around 3 anad off we went fr a swim at jurong west. this girl so cute. hahah. and wat i like most abt our mitup is tht, it will forever always be full of laughters and gossips and serius conversations. the gud thing is, she is not like those typical sensitive pple and even thou she just knew me fr almost 4 yrs only, she can actually know wht type of persun am i. thts grt? yes? yes la. and as usual i have so much fun swimming wif her. i think she is like my swimming companion hhahaha. i have went swimming wif herr lotsa times. there was once we went swimming as early as 9 am? ya, we met each other at 8am at sengkang hahahahah. and yes we didnt sleep the whole night just so we can keep awake till the next morning. hahahah and yes she is my only fren who would do something so stupid. hehhe. and oh as usual, ehem2 jealous la. nnti kalau aku jumpe tu ehem2 , mampos la aku kene berleter. pfffft.

obviusly the next thing which always make me happy is bf la. heheheh,Hi everyone, the clock just struck 12:30am :) Hence, its alr the 11 of feb. yesssa. bf coming back in 6 days times!!!! hehehehhehe. managed to hear his voice yesterdaay, and just now too. and oh u all knw the other day he didnt contact me at all kan teh whole day. ala my emo post tht one la. :( was because he was at sickbay the whole nyte :( sigh and his temp befre tht was 39 hais kesian kan :(((But Alhamdulilah his temp is better now. hais pity him much :( and i miss bf very very very very much :(((( pck ns la :( just put down the phone wif bf. sigh had a lil misunderstanding. well partly was my fault la. thou managed to calm bf yayy. and tbh i very scared la wen he angry and sad. but i like it alot wen he suddenly called me backa nd talk sweetly. heheheheh. had quite a long talk. and fck now im missing him real bad again. :((( hais 17 feb pls faster pls? :(

helo readers syg. hehehe today i is happy. first, obviusly because of work. heheh. wen i came earlier, i was looking aftr the kids playing at the sand pit. then sekali kan. heheheheh. paul came to school. hehehe today is like the first time ever he came early!!! heheh so i look at him then like ignore . haha jual mahal la gitu. ceh. but kan but hehehe my paul syg came to me and wave and say hello tchr mira then smile widely. hahahahah know why im happy? first is because he is the kind of boy whu wont make the first move by saying hi to teachers. he wont at all. hahaha. second, is hehehe he walked past 3 teachers and he ignored them. but came and said hi to me befre heading to class. wah fck ni budak eh. hais hais. and so tchr siti didnt came. and i strted scolding few of them dh. smpai nangis :(( hais. tyno syg kene marah :(( and muhamed ya Allah tatink nyaaa but cute la heheh. then i take half go outside do work. while the others do work in kelas with anothr teachr. and tht tcher actually gave me few student. and not my paul :( then kan,hais,my paul syg ckp - tcher praist, i want to follow teacher mira. i want to go do work with tcher mira. heheheHhehehe. tapi ni cikgu buat bodo. so aku ckp aku amik paul. hehehehe then aku happy la sbb boleh. hahaha k aku nya bias-ness obvius siol. hahahahah. k la k. work was grt la hehe. done with work, wnt home and makan n stuff. then went fr intrvw as a teachr at a learning centre. and believe it or not, i got the job. hehehehe syukur Alhamdulilah. :) and yes im very grateful with my fate actually. actually i think im rather sastified wif myself in terms of education wise. i hav psle cert, nlevel, olevel. scord quite well fr these. and used to be a temasek poly stud. even thou its used to, these employer actually still take credit fr this huh. amazingly i dun regret getting into poly back then. and now im a childcare teacher at sams learning centre, soon undergoing diploma in early childhood. and also, im working as a teacher fr primary level at prince education centre under mcys. amazingly this centre collaborated wif fuchun in yr 2010 hahahahahaha. and not forgetting im a tutor fr a year alr. hehehe and so ya i still find myself not tht education-less la. hehehe ok i love myself la :) and next wannna knw why im happy? hehehhe. NEXT POST HAAHHA

I love you very very much aliff haidar. and im missing u very much now. :( hi everyone, its 11:30pm now, 8 feb. im really missing my boyf now. the last time we chatted on the phone was yesterday at 3pm. i feel like crying. its over 24hrs alr not listening to his voice. i know he is in ns. yes i know. i wouldnt mind actually if he didnt txt me as he might be very busy and tired in there. but yest night i received a weird txt frm bf. a real weird txt. im really scared wen he strt imagining things. while im here standing strong, i hope he is too. :( i rly hope he is still standing strong. yes i know because he is in ns, he'll strt to think all the negative things :( and strt to have all the insecurities again :( pls let him be fine and hav tht bit of confidence in me. trust me syg, i love u very very much and i wouldnt even dream of leaving u. trust me. and im missing u real bad now. really missing u. but i have ur soft bears, txt msges and yes ur pichas. fck sudden misses is so not good la myra hais

three of my fav also. hehehe. i must snap my tyno syg picture sooooon! these three are not chinese. trust me, hahahha, i dont know wht race thy are aniway la. cause i tried talking in chinese to them. but.......*blank face* ahah Hi everyone!!! this is my syg! hahahahahhaha. he is paul. hais he so cute pls hais. and he really know how to ambil my hati. tak pernah buat aku marah tau dekni hehek. and hais he always come to me and hug , kiss me randomly and say iloveu to me randomly. mcm bf aku ceh hahah

hi everyoneeee heheheh. work was grt as usual. hek. ok everyday grt la. and there was cooking lesson. thy made cinnamon apple smoothie. bluek tak sedapp plsss:( next week waterplay yay. hahah mcm aku pulak yg main air -..- pft. and oh my syg came to school finally today!!!! u all know whu my syg? aliff? mestilah tu paling syg!! :) hahahah diam la bf dekat ns :( ni syg lain :( tyno? ah tyno hari2 datang la! paul? heheheheh yes paul dtg. heheh. just now kan, i was pujuk-ing anothr budak. sambil pakaikan paul seluar la. this budak say - i dont like you dekat aku. sbb hahah aku marah dia. abe dia repeatedly ckp dia tak suke aku. then tetibe kan PAUL CIUM AKU THEN GAVE ME THIS CHEEKY SMILE. HAHAHAHAH YA ALLAH *CAIR* HEHEHEH. THEN I ASKED - WHY....DID U SUDDENLY KISS ME? HAHAH. & MY SYG ANSWERED 'BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!' AND GAVE ME THIS CHEEKY SMILE again. hais :) he is like one on of the kid which semue cikgu suke. and i like him and tyno too. hahah. and jin hoon said tht yeSt he went to marina bay sands wah! then dia kate dekat sane dia collect bnyak seashell and main water slide. erm......does tht sound like marina bay sand? o.o hahahah. and and usual my yosuke, tyno and muhammad is forever the one tht make me smile. and the playgrp as usual. okiela i love all la. heheh.

hi my readers syggg. heheh okie the reason why im constantly blogging is because ill be at the lappy fr at least four hr straight everyday hahaha and i always hav a habit of typing something long at lappy. hek. okie today is 7 of feb everyone! hehehe 10 more days befre my syg book out. wuhuuuu. work was grt yesterday. mages seems pleased wif me in the morning. i guess maybe bcause she finally saw me engaging wif the kids. wen i hav always been hahaha. wtv. im pleased wif Myself too. hek. muhammad so cute. he kept coming to me and ask various quest. curious nah. and my syg paul never come. hais. and riku very naughty suddenly why? :( and i syg tyno hahaha. i rly needa find a chance to snap their pichas. and as usual i kinda dun like ahmad. like seriusly. he wont talk nor smile? hais. and he wont eat his own food. like fcking need me to fed. i mean i like feeding them but hahahah im biased and pilih kaseh. heh. but,finally saw ahmad laugh just now. wen i membebel to him in malay. 'asal taknk Main? asal tak bebual? pegi la Main. berbual. kan best dapat bebual dengn kawan. hais. ape Ni diam2.' hahahah the only response i gt frm him was a second Laugh. seriusly? K. and hais angela makin degil. mcm nak ketuk2 kepala dia. grr. tapi dia cute :( hahahah biased! *.* and oh last wik wen i didnt came, tcher siti didnt came too. and muhammad came and ask 'tchr why yesterday you never come? tchr siti also never come. you sick?' hahaha cute la. yesterday padahal sunday haha. heh. to sum up work was grt yest. just tht, an the end of the day wen i approach mages asking abt wen i can strt school. she is like ..... idk. like im nt confident in her la abt this. hais. sesungguhnya aku nak sKola :( bukan keje :( hais. k wtv la :( i gt a new tuisyn assignmnt at cck. and supposed to go teaching yest la. but hahahah last min i reject the assignmnt. hais nt in the mood to go out again la yest aftr reaching home as early as 3:30. and my day was well spent wif movies yest. hahahah. watched WANTED yesterday. hehehehe i swear this movie sounds like one totally action movie. but hahah biaselah hindustan. cinta mesti kene ader! and their love scene made my day. heh. was holding my phone frm 10pm onwards. waiting fr bf kol or txt. then right like 10:45 like tht no kol Nor txt. so i sent him gdnight txt la. because he usually light off at 10:30 pe. but kan heheheh bf kol me at 11! :) and tht really made my night. althou lights out alr and he is like rly rly tired, he actually called me. and hahahah he wishpered thruout the conversation. cute much. and wats more cuter wen he took every opp to gimme a call? :) and today, work was grt la as usual. and sesungguhnya tyno and muhammad made my morning. hehehe. k la actually wen i see tyno face already i happy hahah. spent a short 30 minit solely wif him playing the cars. k la k. and oh was assigned to help out wif the playgrp till lunch tadi. hais this bdk2 kecik cute nya. as usual spent the other hr wif my half day kids. and my paul never come again!!! hais. wahlau:( insya'Allah besok dia dtg k pls? :( while on my way to train,bf called. heheh. had a short chat. and this guy eh failed his 2.4km. ish. nnti dia keluar camp, pagi2 aku nak ajak dia g jogging la. syg dia la walaupun dia fail. hahaha. and katanya ader 10 gay kat sane. eee tsk and salah satu terpikat ngn bf. tsk boo. and oh while i was standing in the train kan,gt this low iq guy infrnt of me. like suddenly, dia ckp happy nw yr dkt aku. then mintak shake hand. and i did. and everyone gave me this look la. like seriusly? dia low iq je kan....and semue anggap dia mcm org asing,org gile. singaporeans chinese la esp aunty2 ni. pft. and he bid me goodbye befre he went off,and said tht we used same hp. hahaha aku jawab k je. biadaps. abe nak aku jawab ape :( hahaha panjang nya aku membebel. tsk. okielah. its 8:30pm now. im very tired alr. hopefully i can keep awake till i received bf calls. :) okie tmrw ill blog again. :)

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hi dearest readers syg hehehhehe. today is the 5th of feb. if you guys have been stalking me, u shud know wht day it is today! hiak haha. ok. its my 6th la. :) amazingly our 5th mnth was grt. i dont remember us having big fights. ok.there was once. erm once which happened just aftr his five day camp. but we resolve tht in an hr. my bf is superb hahaha he know how to calm me down very very fast. heheh. we managed to mit each other almost everyday on the 5th mnth. well we rly took upon every chance and mit each other as feb will be a disaster. yes disaster boo. bf seems comfortable wif my family alr. heheh. and he can like really gt them engaged in a topic yay. and fr me, i still hvent gt used to his family :( okie nehmind. and ya its our 6th mnth. and my syg is nt here. he is in camp :( today is only the fourth day. anothr 13 day befre i can mit him. hopefully we can go out on a real date soon. i miss being alone with him. most importantly i miss him. i hav a feeling tht our rs will be better. now tht he is serving his ns. i need to be more understanding. and i know tht i can. he must be rly tired serving ns so yah patience is virtue mira heheheh. k. hiak rindu nya :( hais. lets doa tht we can go further than just 6 mnth. heheh. bf promised me tht we will gt engaged wen he is done wif ns. hahah thou i gt a feeling we wont be able to at the age of only 20 :/ hahah. bt i can actually imagine my life wif him. it will be purfect. heheh and wats more cuter wen he love babies and kids hek. okla wont talk anymore :( macam nak nangis hais. while im typing abt him, his face actually appeared in my mind like poof magic. and he will go like ' u strong girl kan? jangn nangis k ' hais yerla strong girl. tapi rindu nak buat ape. kan. hais rinduuuuuu rindu serinduuuuu rinduuunyaaaa. happy six month to us syg and oh just put down the phone wif bf. heheheh. managed to have a chat. yayyyy. hahah and bf complained tht bill knfrm melambung sbb everyday kol. so i said tkya kol la. like once every two day je. ehehheh. then bf ckp 'mane boleh, i tak dgr suare u satu hari, dunia mcm terhenti' hahaha 'mcm hati i terhnti gitu' ahhahaha k . biar la aku suke laki sweetalk hek. okie la. syg dia bnyak2. lagi satu jam da 6 feb. then tht means bf 5th day. yay. lagi 11 days L(

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hi everone today is already bf third day in ns camp. ok wait its not already, but it should be only 3rd day :(( but im happy enuf tht the days are gg quite fast heh. bf have been calling me eventhou he is in there. on the first day alr, we managed to have ten minit chat on the phone. heheh. thy was given like 10 min to call their family members. and bf called me to have a short chat. yayy. i even gt my goodnight wish. hahahhaha k. heheh. i thought tht might be like our last time on the phone. but on the second day. he called me at 930pm. and said tht we can otp till lights out which is 1030. hehehe 1 hr chat is grt right? :) we talk alot. he talked abt whut he did and ate n stuff. and amazingly he still havent strt on any of the physical training yet. good huh. hahah he might be facing tough training soon la tu. soon real soon. hahah. received my goodnight wish on the phone itself. can u all imagine how happy i was? hahaha i was very very happy. he even gave me his swit talk. heheh. and yes i miss him alr:( its only the third day. hais. 14 more dayss. and he said tht he might book out late like 10pm. pls dont pls :( let him book out latest by 7 pls :(( 10 is too late. tht might mean i cant mit him and tht wud also mean he will nt hav enuf time to sleep and wake up early next day :( days pass abit faster okie. and hopefully training wont be so tough fr bf. insya'Allah he can take it. Amin. he is a strong guy like me heheheh. timecheck : 10:50pm. just put down the phone wif bf at 1035pm just now. had a five minit chat. and he sound really tired. and apparently tough training have strted alr. and this boy gave me a bad news tht he might only be able to go back on the 18th like tgh-hari. fck him :( he said might go home later than fri if he fail nafa. hais. come lets doa dia pass okie? :( hais sayang dia. :(

Hi everyone. im alone now. i have alot in my mind now. now my main focus,im a poly dropout student. i used to have gt a very high self-esteem. no matter how lil effort i put in doing something, ill have confident tht i can still score it. but again, it was back then. back then during my secondary school period. now, trust me the confidence level in me have droped, tremendously. i have nothing to be proud of now :( back then, last few months, i can still brag tht i have education. tht i am a temasek poly student. tht i am studying a high standard course. i am in one of the top school. but now? i hav nothing. im not a poly student anymore. the effort i put in fr the past 5 yrs in fuchun sec hav gone to waste. my highest qualification now is only olevel :( nthg to be proud of. yes im now a tecaher, pursuing early childhood edu. bt its a private cert :( a temasek poly to a private studnt :( seriusly. bt wtv it is yes im still considered lucky tht i can come this far. but its not abt tht. its abt pple looking down on me. i just have a feeling tht i have let my family down. like really disappoint them. my student called me stupid. droppping a design course fr teacher. believe it or not, a primary 6 kid called me stupid. maybe he is right? i still cant believe tht im a drop out student . my poly life. my poly mates. yes i miss them :< no matter how much i hate my poly life back then i still love my rhd mates. rachel, nadiah, huili have always been there fr me. sutri, yilong, naziyah, mathew, zul will always lend me a helping hand. thy are the reason why i can still continue till december. and obviusly i miss nasiah and rachel the most

Hi everyone. :) i met up with khaiuna and aishah just now. yes i miss being with them. rly happy to finally met both of them like together. at least, i wont feel too awkward. heheh. met aishah earlier at bhg. she was working and there i was standing beside her and yap, yap, yap. heheheh. had lotsa things to talk abt. frm our online bussiness to her school to my life and stuffs. una met us aftr an hr later. we had a real long chat and jokes. befre heading off to long john silver fr lunch. we talk all abt our secondary mmnts. from the everyday staying back at school, drink polka drink everyday and also abt akid hahahahaha. it have been 4 years. thts really long hahhaha. meeting them really yes made miss secondary life. thou, yea, thy aint rly like my true fre. but apparently thy are still here wen i wanna mit and just have a chat. and i can actually see thy still ahve tht 'look-down-attitude' on me. but then again uhuh i dont mind. thy told me tht i shud change myself. hahahahah fr wht fck. no matter how much pple assume me frm the way i dress and behave, i still wunt fcking change. yes fcking wunt. wtver it is, i hd spent a grt time wif them. and Alhamdulilah fr the short mitup (:

Hi everyone, u all wanna knw something? :( want la pls :( my bf is gg to ns later, 2nd of eb, pukl 8!!! hais, u know wht tht means kan? it means bf have only two days to spent wif me. it means bf will nt be able to fetch me or give me suprises at work anymore. it also means ill have to continue my back-to-mundane life :(( haish life w/o bf will be fck, bored! :(u know the feeling kn? :( it......sucks.. totally suckss. we'll only have fri night, sat and sun morning. :( wahlau sian. and wats worst? sat night im schooling. and sun tgh-hari im fcking working! and wats worst more? 5th feb will be our 6th mnthsarry and he is away fr camp :( hais can bf not go? pls :( ill be like gg home sleep work eat and sleep and the same routine will repeat till ill mit bf :< ill have no life. k wtv. my life revolves around him, so? i love him :(( i rly hope he can adjust himslef wif ns life. i hope he can take good cares of himself in there :/ i hope....everything will be fine in there. :< ok wait the good thing abt him is tht he can adapt to his environmnt very fast :) hais but still :( bf hav always had insecurities. like wat will happen to me outside. like wat might happen to this rs. like if i might change. and stuffs. :( rly dun like if he have insecurity. he can mark my word. tht ill wait fr him till he end ns. then we'll gt engaged. and married. and he'll chnaged my life into a complete fairytale! :) but first, he need to go fr later ns! :( hais. i rly hope everything will be fine fr him there. and i, will keep to my promise and take care of myself. i remember everything i promised him. ill be back by 8 :) ill not wear short dresses , or low cut top :) i'll remember all and kip to it. rly dun wanna affect his mood in there ;< hais i cant wait fr him to end ns! :( sayang Aliff Haidar :(