i cant be happy everyday. i wont be expecting good news everyday. good things wont always happen everyday. yea i know. reality finally hit me yesterday. it hit me....real hard.. work was awesome as always, till the end of the day. i shouldnt have initiated a talk wif my supevisor. i rly shouldnt. told her tht i wanna tender my resignation as im gonna strt rp soon. and she fvking gave me this look and said 'u dont deserve to be in poly.' 'im gonna call ur school and make sure thy wont accept u' i mean seriusly..... :( she know tht i wanna school. and not work. and yes i fcking admit tht my attendance sucks wen it come to this. but no back then wen i was in tp, i came regularly. she cant rly blame me wen i didnt attend work sometimes. fcking because she still hvent apply fr me diploma. like fck why did i even work there? because she fcking gurantee me i will pursue a diploma in early childhood. fck. it have been two mnths. but nthg.....nthg! and she told me i cant quit. 'if its starting next mnth, and u cant quit,then no need to go to school' like fck? 'you go n think and tell me tjrw wats ur decision, oh wait, dun even know if ur coming tmrw, who know tmrw someone might day' hahahhahaha sial. she fcking curse me hahahah. kau la mati bodoh. and yes hahaha she dont wanna pay me my salary. ya i work fr free last mnth. :(( dont i deserve to school? i know i deserve. :( kalau tak, Allah tak akan bagi aku peluang sekola dekat rp. kalau tak da lame aku tergerak nak quit tp. kalau tak aku ni da dinamakan budak dropout yg tak patut pun ader kemene dengn cert diploma. but no, Allah have still gave me the chance to pursue all this :( but no use........some pple just have this hatred? idk :/ 'this is not a charity, fr u to come here and play with the kids' do i look like one beggar or wat yg dtg tmpt dia nak main2 and nak kasih syg bdk2? :( do i? :( mmg betul aku tak marah budak2. tapi.... :( patut ke dia kutuk gini mcm. sial la . hais. i regret....sigh. but no ive never regret working there. simply because of kak syadah,katty,neity and julie. and simply because of my awesome kids. which i have consider as part of my life. but fck i hate my suprvisor. during intervw she told me i can strt schooling early feb. but now? hahahaha sial kau bodoh da march sia hais.....