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{cancerians/}
Tuesday2:21 PM


This is an overview of the cancer sign. which is myself. i still dont get it why cancerians are categorized under those moody type. for 18 years i have been living, i dont myslefy moody. uhuh. i have got quite a number of cancerians friends. and i can actually say we are very good at hiding our feelings. vulnerable? yes. we are, very. sensitive? yes we are. thou, our strentgh is we know how to hide our feelings. aha, to contradict this, one very good example would be my bf. he knows wen im not feeling ok. maybe, after being in a rs, im really not good in hiding my feelings. which is.....suck. hahahaha.


Moody, sensitive, emotional. the only thing i can agree on is nothing. only wen im jealous, all these will arouse. like wen im out with y bf, and his eye is on another girl and i pretend i dont care. but actually im sensitive towards his action and will became moody unintentionally and lead to unstable emotion. hahahahahah. k la. actually im not so petty. ALL I WANT TO SAY IS THAT THIS IS WRONG AND DOESNT APPLY TO ME HEHE.

see my strentgh? im loyal hehehehehhe. and i know it.


now, this is my purpose in blogging.
insecurities. yes. i get insecure very very very fast. no matter how much love have been given to me, if tht person stop loving me fr awhile, ill get insecure. my mind will go elsewhere:negativity. i really can think and imagine things alot. seeing another girl which u say looks excatly like me --- will make me feel insecure. why? someone out there is like me. seeing someone character out there similar as u ---- will make me feel insecure. why? someone will understand u more than i do. and the list will go on and on till i found an assurance. insecurities will always be part of me. i get sad? upset? angry? easily wen my bf exchange sweet txt wif a gerl. sweet txt. and wen i read it, automatically, insecure! but, no matter how insecure nor sad i am, i always know how to heal myself. cancerians strentgh? yes.
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{mummyyyyy bdaeeee/}
Sunday2:24 PM
hi lovelies, i know i havent been updating fr quite awhile. ok lemme recap. 12 may, or 13 may. went to jb with mum, brother, ajul and bf. to celebrate mum bdae cum mother day. the night befre, bf sent me home. however.....he missed the last bus. and so i asked him to try luck txting my brother tht he'll sleep at my hse. and ok.... heheh.. brother agreed, like literally agreed. and wen he reached my hse. cikman was like 'eh masok ah. macam tak kenal pulak' hehe. ok la. i tend to be happy with positive responce frm my family. hmmm. hehe. and so went to jb fr lunch, dinner. ahhahaha.i swear we ate alot. first, we had a seafood lunch? ya some sort. next, mum went for a massage. hahahhaha, she went story telling while groaning pasal the massage. haix cute much. while mum went fr massage, i accompanied bf to find fr his mum, mother day present. this guy very cerewet? yes i swear hahahah. and finally found something, a bag frm SEED. and he bought flowers, mug as well. this boy love his mom but.....he can only expressed through things. hahaha. ok. heheh. then we went fr dinner? ahahahahha. yes. suprised mum with cake. and hahhaha we literally sang her a badae song along with her ageee. yayy my mom da old ceh takla. and went to watch movie _ nyangkung. ahhahahahah i swear i dk why i always watch lame movie at jb ahhahaha. nehmind la. laughter pill. heheheheh. sigh. i forever wanna have these kind of outing. like everyday. hahahahha. k la k la. i love them. and oh, saw wani there. sigh rindu dia :( hiak






letsss seeee what we ateeee







see my mom cake ceh.





bye hehe



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{melupyiu/}
Thursday11:58 PM
hi lovelies. as usual,im bored. im tired of my hindi movies, im tired of my xinmsn dramas, im tired of certain people blogs, and obviusly im tired of facebook. was scrolling my twitter, and my latest mention was frm my bf. went into his accnt and i was quite disappointed wif myself. tbh, i really am even befre i read his tweet. we didnt had any celebration. tbh, im not complaining. we didnt really celebrate cos we didnt had tht much money on tht day. and we both are perfectly fine without celebrating. but.... it was partly my fault. i woke up a lil late and went fr werk only at 3:30. therefore met bf only at 6. :( he was very very angry wif me cos we spent less than 12 hrs with each other. and we didnt do anythng on the day..... but at least, we had a quality time spend with each other frm 9pm-12. we had our 7-11 supper, and our lyric-game, at our usual park and all the hug and kisses as usual. why i love him? even thou he is angry wif me, he will still be ok wif me. he will still make sure im fine and will entertain me like usual. which is what i call, a split personality, hehe. but still, thts one thing he is good at while i suck alot at controlling my emotion. once im angry wif him, ill be angry and irritated wif him. sigh. this is when i'll start to appreciate him more. but, erm i have always appreciate him aniways hehe. sigh. deareast bf,i promised tht our 10th mnthsarry, will be a much more pleasant one. keep my word, hehhe, i love you



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{/}
Monday9:46 AM


heheheheheh i know this is random but i told u i love bf wen he is in camp. he will automatically be very very sweet. hehhek. kla. im actually missing him cos he is like in camp nw? yea. and he is alseep alr now.... :(
its ok, meeting him later :) yayyayayay, wanna watch avengers with him. movie date yay
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{happy 9th monthsarry love hehe/}
9:12 AM


Hi my readers syg:) its the 5th of may;) say hello to our monthsarry. Yes hehe its our 9th!:) happy me happy us. Oki lemme be honest. Hahaha. We was fighting just befre our 9th. Ok not literally a fight la. Just erm me being a bit unreasonable? Hahahaha. Befre tht we was lepaking wif ajul. And ajul was all excited planning fr our 1 yr anni. Haha cute much and it really make me happy to see ajul having so much confidence in our rs. He was like really anticipating our 1 yr. Hiak. And there bf and i was like smilling cos we hav been to anothr cntry tgtr.hahah.and so suddenly.happened and i lost my mood. Ajul and went home. And bf and i had our talk at 11:15 till 12am! Exactly 12, i hug him and he automatically wished me:) the best part abt us is we can nvr stay mad at each fr too long! Love still love us hahaa k. Hehe. And we managed to spent our time befre the last bus came. ;) i swear i love him alot. And i o realize tht im getting abit too over jealous towards him. I swear its cos i love him too, too much;( but im confident he wont leave me fr other girl. He wont! :) and thts why i love him. I get abit emotional these days but he is still the only one who know how to ease me. The best person who know how to comfort me is definitely my bf:) hahaha but i gotta say tht i get kinda emotional these day :( so lucky tht my bf always tolerate my shit. ;) and thts why i lovs him aniway. Im quite proud or happy shud i say tht we mnaged to go this far. 9 month. Its not a short perid. No its not. Spending almost 270 days together wif somone without complaining is sure something im quite proud of. I love him and i swear. He have been a more tolerant guy, and less egoist. Back then,his ego was lik uncontrolable, but now, hehehehe, i swear he is lika change man. Like really. Last two wik, we fought like erm a big fight? And i was abit of egoist still dont wanna admit my fault, and he was like the one giving in to me. Suddenly he talk nicely to me and i was actually very very shock. Hahahahahh. Cause yea he cast aside his ego just we both would be fine. And im actually very happy. ;) yes he have been better thruout these 9 mnths. And thts the reason why im loving him more andddd more. Hehehehe. Im really anticipating our rsn wht its like in a yr time? In 3 yr time? In 10r yr time? Our rs would surely hv been into a serius one-marriage hehehehe. Sigh. And oh i guess my family have knw abt us:) i swear im kinda happy with the reaction. Positiveeeeeee. Hehehe. Cos my bf syg know how to amek their hati. Hek. Oki la, happy 9th to aliff haidarr and miraaaa:) hehehe may it bloom to a better rs. I love us. And aliff love meee. :)

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{insecurities?/}
Wednesday10:36 AM
what is insecurities? ask us, girl especially, we have answers to that simple question. we can give you a whole chunk of answers and explanation. 'insecurities is when i feel that i do not have enuf make up on my face and my lip gloss is drying soon. its when i needa go to the toilet to touch my insecurities again' 'insecurities is when i have an unstylish hair, lots of messy hair strands and not never enough bobby pins to make it stay in place.' 'insecurities is when i find my boobs too small and a figure lika bamboo stick. its when im way a far from megan fox curvy shape.' 'insecurities is when i have short, flabby leg and with lots of permanent itchy spots on it' and to me 'insecurities is when i saw someone more better than me. its when i saw someone with a straight and longer hair, with absolutely flawless face, perfect body shape and long curvy legs' thats when i suffer from insecurities. i've always heard that boys dont go for look. they will go for personality and.......ya good heart. but then again,isnt it a contradicting when we girls doesnt put on make-up and wear body fitting dress, u guys wont even pay attention to us? eyes will automatically be attracted to those model-like girls. after all, girls are girls. seeing someone better, will automatically decrease our self-esteem, alot!







and when you have longer hair, ur self-esteem seem to be higher uh?



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{/}
1:47 AM
And as usual, 10 days passes very bery passed. sent bf off fr his book in. however, luck is on his side! :) called me later night and said tht he gosted out to be a driver! :)) ahahaha, u can really hear the excitement in his voice :)since thts wht he have always wanted aniways:)easier life await him,insya'Allah. and so heheheh no more booking in and out. everyday gonna be a 7-5pm day.furthermore its at clementi yayaya. hehehhe.

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