so hi everyone, im here! back to blogging cos aniways my phone suck nowadays. no internet is equal to no twitter no youtube and no nothing. so yes, im here now. i have been loving my life. i have got the best family ever, more than what i could have asked for. and yes, best boyfriend. and i hope i can brag about him in one year times, in five years time in ten years time and forever. sitting down with my children, grandchildren, and yes tell them how i met my boyfriend, my only boyfriend. i cant wait for that day to happen. i actually have full faith in myself. im full of confidence? yes i am. i always compare myself wif other girls who are in a relationship. always and wen i see their boyfriend complaining, i learn from their mistake. i tell myself, yes laki tak suke gini2, so ya.. my boyfriend dont really tell me wht he dont like about me. ill find it out myself. i read novels to know guys;s thought. and i watch too many love movies. and another way i can find out is thru our fights. thts the only time he speak his mind, and the only time i know my flaws.... i want to be a perfect girlfriend. its hard, i swear. but im happy in the process of becoming one. im happy wen my bf appreciate me. wen he compliment me, i swear its the best feeling ever. i have always been myself wen im wif him. always. but idk if my bf knows tht. taking advantage of someone's kindness, tak pernah ade dalam dictionary aku. why? sbb kebaikan aku selalu orang ambik ringan. ni pompan bodoh, kau buat bodoh suda dengn dia. time and tme people go out and in of my life. because they saw nothing worth becoming my friend. but tht is them. not my bf. he saw something in me. something which make him stay. soemthing which make him say im the one. it have been 13 months exactly. 13 months. i hope tht something is still here. tht something is still wif me. i hope im still worthy of him. worthy of someone. love. faith. compliment. appreciation. life. i need that. crying and crying and crying sucks right? smile laugh enjoy ..... maybe, just maybe, i will be worthy for someone. and tht someone, i hope and pray its aliff haidar. oh ya, was looking thru bf's old picture. i prefer his looks now. hahahhaha i know its random. and half of my criteria of my ideal guy is fullfiled?



its not hard being yourself. relationship or not, ur own identity is important. and i, have never been anyone else all these while.

Say yayyyy!!!!!! hehehhehehehhehehe. 5th august 2012 = 1st annivesary wif boyfriend  sayanggg! :"))) hehhehehe syukur Alhamdulilah cos we managed to go this far. spending 1 year with that same someone is obviusly not easy. and its obviusly somthng which im very proud of myself. :") i love him very much thou he always make me angry/disappointed/upset at times. but still, i would always tell myself, thts part and parcel of life :") and i have to admit that both of us are very strong and care less of our ego. The old mira who wont even utter the word sorry have finally learnt to sry fr every single mistake she had done. he have changed me alot, in both postive and negative aspect. yes. the old carefree mira  who wore anythng just so she is happy. who go out wif anyone without asking anyone permission. who went home at anytime with no curfew instilled on her. sometimes i do miss those times. but then again, he have changed me. trying to adjust myself to what he want to be, its hard, but im trying,. when i see myself wearing jeans and top for a week, i feel so happy, cos i changed my way of dressing up for him. cos i dont wnat him to wry. i dont want him to see his gf wearing indecently for others. i dare to changed myself cos i know i love him. how have he changed me in a neagtive way? gg home late frequenty hahahahaha. but, im used ot it already now.its already a year we spent together now :") there are times he initiate d abreakup, there a re times i initiated a breakup. but it was all a momnt of angsty. after iniatiating, we cried, we think back, and we'll be all ok. :") syukur Alhamdulilah there isnt any time we really did had a break up. :) big fight? ye swe have. thos which lasted fior days. those which make us hate each other. those which make us cry non stop. those which make us nearly gave up with each other. but im lucky we are we cos we know we can nver go on wif our life normally without us/ :) i love him and only him. i have never believe in forever, but our rs convince me tht there is such thing as forever. i love seeing him growing up, seeing this immature and cinta monyet rs growing into a true love rs. there are times im very frustrated wif him, especially wen he taked abt phone bills and ezlink as an excuse of not meeting nor otp. but i have to constantly remind myself, its for his own good, wouldnt want his bill to be cut as well. its rather depressing but well. an dnow he is back to his bookout only on weekend routine. and let me tell u, it suck big times! sigh nehmind la gah. so happy 12th monthsarry to us!!!!!!!! yayyyyyy!!!!!! sho fast :") and i really didnt anticipate this day tht fast :) i love him i love him i love muhd aliff  haidar.

26th july was le bf's birthday :) yes, we both are july babies :) hehehehehehhe and do u all knw tht exactly a year ago was our second day of meeting each other? hehehehe well, u can all read back exacly a year ago post. :") this guy said tht he wanna sent me to schla nd i dun even know how come i ended up not gg to schl ahahhahahah. tht was the first time someone kiss me. o.o hehehehhe. okla. *.* seribu kali aku cerite nanti hahahahahha. and so my syg si already 19 now :") he is already a young matured and sensible bf. he have planned fr his future, his biss. its already his 7th month serving ns. tht also mean i have endure fr 7 mnth :") his rs with his dad.....was supposedly to be ok. idk now, they are forever complicated :( hiakhiak. and insya'Allah his rs with his friends will be good for now. let his true friend all stay :") i love this boy very2 much. :") i dont know whats his wish. but i really hope his wish will come true. he deserve somethng :")

I was just ranting in my notes regarding my birthday. but then again i was wrong la. my birthday turn out well ;')started off with schl, marketing. ya schl. haixxx. everyone wished me, and stuff. and got  a phone call from una. :) yes, she wished thru fb, txt, and phone kol. now tht make me feel appreciated:)  bestf wished me on the dot at 12. hehhehehehe however clashed with le bf wish too. hehehe bf gave me a long text yay!!! but he kept on calling me kakak -.- tskk. kakak 6 hari je peee. and bestf was like 'aku bukan first eh?:(' hahahah cute much :") and ya as ususal certain people which i thought would remmeber didnt.... whcih is a lil bit disappointing. so much of remembering theirs...every year. met le bf right after schl at schl canteen. and this guy said he werk on tht day. but actually he applied leave for me. sigh, this is too good to be true hahahahah. :"))) sayang dia la. but hahahaha we have no idea what to do hahahahhaha. cos bf belanja me sakura alr fr my badae. ahahah fr real. so we spent time together till 8pm. :") befre i went to meet le family fr dinner.mum, bro, kak jannah and suprisngly cukya, 3 muskeeteers, and cikman too. abit sad cos ajul wasnt there. had our makan2 session. and around 11, we had cake cutting session. hahahahha and sumpah aman iritating nak mampos. hahahhaha. wen i was still making a wish, he was already blowing the candles. hahahahah but he couldnt, liek teh light was still there hahahah. then biler da abes tup dia happy ahhahah -.- every year taw dekni haix. ahhaha. hehehehhe and ended my day with iqah;s wish. hahahahha i was about to emo cos she didnt wish me. rupenya dia nak jadi last. pft tatink hahahaha. but aniways im thankful as Alhamdulilah i have lived up to 19 years :") i love everyone especially my family and boyfriend!!!!! ps reason there is no photo cos i have no idea where my cable is haisss