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Friday12:09 PM
so hi hi hi :") its the 27th october. 2012 sure do pass by fast, i swear. so yes. some news. i have totally move on ha ha ha. well......knw what at tht time i was still clinging onto hopes. but when he called me an attention seeker thts whn i realised he's sucha .... who dont even wanna admit shits he have done to me... this kind of guy really deserve a slap frm me. but well if im given a chance i would.
so......i used to respect him alot. really alot. like u know when we was in a rs, i gv him the freedom to just do whatever he want, he may flirt with watever shit,just dont cross my limits. thts all. and ya..... so far he didnt cross my limit, hence i respect him alot.... but....one week after we broke off, poof u lost it. just like tht. 
hate? no i wont and actually i dont even have the hate feeling. someone who once meant the world to me for 14 mnths, and i'l hate him? i wont.....
so i already know why he left me. why he ditch me. why he dont love/want/need me anymore. why im being treated this way.
so...........initially he said í'll be busy with ns and career, i wont have time to meet u' so yes. i believed ha ha ha and i even thought of 1001 ways just to assure him tt idm. then he said 'íts not you, its me. you are perfect. its just me...im guilty.' so ha ha ha i told him i knw wht shit u hv done and it actually doesnt matter. then he said 'we can be friends...who knows, close friend.' so i said idw be close fren i wan u as my bf. and sooooooo he finally said 'my feelings towards u have fade. part of me wanna be wif u. but another part wanna leave u' so ha ha ha i thought maybe ya. it hv fade. even thou throughout tht 14 mnth i love and pampered him like a baby. but ya i told myself there isnt another girl ah in his life. sooooooooooooo
tada. as much as i thought he havent found a new girl. he actually did. and guess whatttt he even watsapped me their picture. uhuh. and he ditch me for a girl. ditch this fcking faithful loyal girl for another girl. so...............................urm.....where's the logic?
the logic is he have long intended to leave me cos da bosan....kut. even when i always entertained him with my shit regardless of whut time. bt oh well. knw why i said intended to leave since da lame. cos he met tht girl already when kita baru break fr less than a week! and.. dia kate dia wanna leave me cos dia busy with this and tht when he just doesnt knw how to tell me......
so know what?
this is for you and tht girl. ha ha ha u left me for somone who is not even prettier than me (all of my friends opinion zzzzz) like hello muke decent tak semesti dia tu baik sgt. and knowing u for so long.... i thought u gt a better tasteeeee. mcm nak jumpe tu pmpn and freaking knock some shits in her head. but knw wht by doing tht it just mean im still chasing u. so no. u are definitely not a keeper, anymore. why must i stoop so low just fr u eh. not worth it. but whtever. knw wht fck u and tht girl. why eh she enter ur life. i knw ur answer will be 'dia bestf i.' 'i need a girl bestf' or erm whtever. knw why i hate her. cos she bloody enter ur life / layan you when she knw you are in a rs. and for god sake we havent had a big fcking fight for so long. so......why eh carik a girl bestf to pour out shits eh. and im like 24/7 for u sia... so erm.....? where's the logic eh. but yalah, like what u said 'kita takde jodoh' ha ha ha mmg la takder jodoh kalau u selingkuh zzzzzz.
but know what.....maybe ya i deserve someone better. as sweet as u. but again tht someone should stay la kan.............and not just feed me with empty promises
im not wishing u guys all the best nor whatever la. cos know what. a guy who make a women cries for a thousand times wont be happy. one day in the middle of the night you will realised how stupid u are.
im complimenting myself? no im not. but i know i hv given my 110% in tht rs. i tried so hard to make it last. i didnt eat at schl just so as i can saved mny fr our date. i forced myself to do multiple meetups in a day just so we can hv some fun. i saw somethng tht caught my eye but i push tht aside and bought somethng for u. i went down to the public phone just to ask u how u doing. i waited fr u for 4 hrs without complaining cos i just wanna meet u. i calmed u down even when im upset myself cos idw fight. i resisted talking to my classmate which is guys just so u wont be insecure. i txted u my whereabout every single time cos idw u to be worried. i tried so hard to wear as decent as possible cos idw u to feel insecure when othr people look at me. i topup my ppd each time it finish just so i can update u when im outside. i ditch my friends just so i can be wif u. i stayed at home while ur werking/stay in cos idw u to think wildly. i went home at the timing u gave just so i can earn ur trust. i bring u home to meet mum brother uncle aunt everyone just so i could prove to them ths rs will last till marriage. i said sry for evrythng.....just so i could be perfect.
ha ha ha ha sigh.....im tht....stupid....cos .... i have 100% faith in u.... zzzzzzz
uhm.........
 so.... guys? ha ha ha i had enuf of heartache...... its time to live my life with my friends and family obviusly. 
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