too used to people getting in and out of my life. like too used. i repeat, too used.you know what sucks when you thought the people which comes in, and have make a certain impact in ur daily life, and suddenly walked away and poof, gone. it sucks alot.

mainly the reason why i hate letting someone into my life.

this person, he came into my life. like literally txted me every few minutes, from morning to night. and updated me every single shits. and promised me. erm i repeat, promised me, we'll catch bd on the very first day itself. ha ha ha so shit fck shit cos on the day itself, he didnt txted me. the next day i txted him, and he said his sent button is spoil. like who you kidding, ha ha ha. and tada pooooof, everything is gone. we stop txting/contacting. promises broken. same cycle all over again.
what i wanna say is tht, yes there is nothing between us. but suddenly disappear then give stupid excuses, and then suddenly didnt txt. is rude. and rubbish. and this cycle sucks

ha ha ha ha.

what about those person which i always meet? and when im down, where are they? nowhere in sight. no where.
and when i txt them, they'll be 'dulu ade matae mana nak carik aku kan' 'skg baru kau igt aku'
sry but this suck. and it have always been me finding fr them. like literally me. its tiring. its really tiring. friends, boyfriends, lost it all. in an instant.

what i did? idk.
giving in, always being the water,apologizing,everything its all me. always trying very hard to salvage both rs/friendship. hah ha ha  but still,its gone....... its really tiring to go through the cycle. why cant people come and stay. and.... just stay. why must people leave and make it like nothing happen. and make it like its ok to leave. why must people leave when the other party are treasuring them bits to pieces?

tired. of. shits.