so hey hey heyyyyy. ok so last sunday, went to met him. ok i shall call him by his name ok. i wont call him by my ex. cos....idk.. like u knw i still havent call him my ex when im talking bout him to anyone. and most of the time i goes matae aku..... krik krik sigh. oh ya so ya met him at 4 at titanic and i only read his txt at 2. so immediately txted haziq, and luckily he hasnt slept or anythng at tht period of time. and yes haziq was like mmg kene follow so ya.... so ya, when i reach there, i already saw aliff there. erm....knw wht i rather say 'him' la sigh..... so ya, and guess whttttt everyone, he bought along the girl as well. which actually just piss me off so badly at tht time. so its like auto ah i became all angsty. like ya. sape tak bingit...... uhm.....




so yes, then haziq came. and we all sat down. for a moment we all kept quiet. ok ya. i mean him and me. so like i cannt stand the awkwardness and silentness, i break it with 'kau kate nak bobal? bobal ah cepat' so yes, i talked kau aku with him for the first time ever thruout nearly 15 mnths kita kenal each other and stuff. and so tada everythng started. like u know he started his 'kau aku sial and fcuk u all' and i went 'aku kau jantan sial gi mampos and all'

so u know when was the last time i acted like one haywired minah? idk i think it was when i literally fought wif una years ago. like ya. thts it.

and ya like haziq was there and i felt bad so 'kau kate kau nak bbl ngn kawan aku. cepat ah bbl. kau pikir dia bnyak mase nak layan kau' like ya so he went to talk to haziq in another place, like i cant hear wht they talked about.

and tht just mean im with tht girl, there. so i talked to her first. i ask her 'mcm mana krg kenal eh?' and she was like 'erm dia like my gambar at insta and then pm me kat fb' 'then u layan ah at fb?' 'err ya' 'bile u layan dia you tau tak dia ade matae?' 'sumpah demi Allah i didnt know. like i didnt masuk fb dia and see all tht. then wen kita da jumpe then i know. and i told him to stop contacting me' 'oh....its ok, both of u are at fault. if he didnt pm u u wont layan. and if u tak layan this wont happen. and aniways sry cos i kept on bringing u in tadi' oh ya..... so u know while i was arguing with him i kept on bringing this girl in 'kau pmpn jangn jadi bodoh ...... bla3.... ' so ya....... ok so the girl replied 'oh takper2, i understand exactly how u feel. dulu i ngn my ex fr 3 yrs he left me fr a girl so i understand' yah.....fck.... so i said ' ah its ok things happen alr. u suke dia?' she nodded. so ya i said 'i know why u like him tht fast. i like him tht fast too. im not gonna wish u all the best. dia baik. and dia mmg suke flirt. if u tak boleh tahan just let it out to him, he will understand. and jangn manjakan dia sgt. i i did tht, and look wht happen. and lastly u guys wont last. wont.' oh and so she was like listening to me tentatively... and ya the boys were done talking and so we went off.


while walking, i ask haziq was i bad just now. and he was like 'siak ah kau garang sia aku igtkan kau maseh ah nak baik2 ngn dia' and i immediately wnt 'should aku mintk maaf' and he was like wtf mira, he deserve it. and if he didnt txt u anymore tht mean he dont care. dont bother la mira. so ya.... i thought ya.... then suddenly i received a txt frm him. saying Allah tu maha besar and everythng pasti ade hikmahnya. and i remembered i have somthng to say to him. so i wnt to meet him alone, without haziq. and the girl waited one side.



so guess wht, i said sry fr whtever i said just now when i was pissed. and i talk to him in i u. cos u know when i talked to him in kau aku, i feel like idk, my heart like feel so bad, like idky. i told him about his bestf. i told him not to talk bout shits at fb anymore cos u knw my mum aunt bro is like over thr. and yes i ask him when they met.... guess wht.... he met them before we broke off.... and when i ask why didnt tell me when we met fr our break up, he said 'u know i cant' meh... guys should just freaking know thts it better if he tell us than us finding out ourself, cos u knw it sucks and hurt fcking lot.... but well. and so ya i ask him 'do i deserve this' and he was like no, thts why i left u. u deserve better. hmm.... at least i know i dont deserve this, at least. so ya i said to him ' we'll be friends. not enemy. ill turn to u if i encounter big prob cos so far only u knw how much and wht i went thru' and he nodded, and say tht he'll only msg me when i hv move on, like literally move on. oh well.........

so yes.... i felt so much better after apologizing to him and her, i swear. like u know i thought i would be feeling abit more sastified cos i behaved like one bitch. but no..... i actually felt ew. and no, i dont want him to think like im the most rabak ex ever or wht cos im not. and yes guess wht, he txted me the next day, and tht make me smile, cos i told everyone he'll apologize and he'll say im the best ex ever. and everyone was like forget it myra, org mcm gini tak tak akn nak baik2 dengn kau bla3......

sooooooo yes he did, he said sry for all and all said tht i was the best ever. so i smiled :') i told myself, if we were to break off, i'll make sure he gonna rmember me as one of the best. i did. hopefully he'll remember like till how long he can la.....

and yes, im still gonna say he's the best cos he is. ok go :')