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{lets walk the lane down 2012/}

Monday12:32 PM

2012. it may have been a good and bad year for all of us. but syukur Alhamdulilah we managed to live up till now. lets recap back how my 2012 was. i remember vividly how i strted off my 2012. on january 1st, i strted off with him. we went to catch the fireworks at marina and had our hugs and kisses while witnessing it. sweet? yea the reason why i remembered it till now. january i atteded some mj12 concert thingy. on january i worked at sams early learning education as a childcare teacher. life there was perfect. met all different kind of kids and i remember exactly how biased i used to be and only syg the handsome kids heheheh hahahahha.on january went over to genting highland wif le famili and him. perfect. my january was perfect.

february. february 2nd was his fist day entering the real man life; ns. i woke up as early as 6am so i could snet him off. still remmeber he fought with his famili tht morning partly cos of me and thy didnt sent him off and come only later when he's about to go in. february, work and work, lonely life yep. 14 feb he sent me a valentine later which make me happy thruout tht month and yep i still kept it till now. february, i officially withdrawed from temasek poly. february..... wht more can i say? life was perfect back then cos there's special dates every weekend.

tht paul was my most favourite cheekiest boy ever heheh

officaily declare im missing my temasek poly's mates alot

march. march was when he went for his one week tekong trip. march i tried luck applying for rp and i received news in a week tht i got in. amin Alhamdulilah im one lucky girl. end of march met my rachel syg after months of not meeting. met le best friend after months of not meeting too. march, my kecik syg was hospitalised. le sigh kidney disease, diabetes. hmm, kecik is my cat ok :( march, dates and dates every weekend and gt pampered with good foods and movies every week.

april. april 5th was his pop. met his family and went over his camp together with his familiy. april 11 i went over for a short getaway with him to posrt dickson tht is. yes. a 3 day 2 night was hyst ... purfect,solely with him. april was when i spent my 10 days with him having dates evey day. april was when my family and him went over to jb for a movie and shopping. april 15th i strted back my year one life as an rp student, fantatstic classmates tht is. april......a good fruitful month

semester one kelasmates :")

may. 19th may abang got engaged. perfect and now getting married in two years time. busy day, but worth it cos he's my only abang heheheh. 12th may was mummy birthday. went over jb to celebrate. may...... i cant remember wht else happen heh heh

june ha ha ha i remmber nothing bout ths month, absolutely nothg, what i remember was tht ths is my holiday? and i just ended exam? yup i guess so. lets procced to july! july was when i broke my garden by the bays, mbs and cold stone virgin. july was when my bill line got cut up till now hahahah meh. july 20 was my 19th birthday. (suprisingly i couldnt retrieve any pictures of my birthday frm my camera) gt my first wish frm le best friend and him. perfect. he suprised me at schl and treated me sakura. had celebration wif le fam later in the night. celebrated with my student and she gt me an angry bird cake :') july 21st was the first day of ramadhan. july 26th was his 19th birthday. gt him a shirt (which i hope he still wears it) july......july was our month

August. August 5th was our one year anni. yes. happiest girl alive but its over. so yep. august hari raya. had a a great raya this year with le fam, him and friends. the period when sha closet bussiness sucks...alot. august was when i met le bestfriend. august...... alot of thing happened but no point talking bout it cos it was all those sweet lil thing i had. but ya...

one was our best date fr august was ths. kite flying date. but yah.

september....september... was the month i met zubaidah alot and alot of time. this cute friend of mine always nevr fail to brighten up my life. swimmings. job hunting. story telling session. interviews. job trainings. hahahaha all tht in this month. september, we him and i, things changed, slowly we drifted apart with lesser and lesser meetups.

october. lets say this is the worst month ever. october was when i feel like my life is over. october 12th he treated me like a joke. he did the same thing to me like what i did to others. he met that girl. october 14th he decided that this rs is over. october 16th he asked for a patch up. and october 17th he just walk away saying his feelings has....fade. october.....we met, we fought, we shouted,everything went haywired. october, life has lost its meaning for awhile. october have make me believe that happy ever after doesnt exist. october, its time to finally meet those friend i have ditch,in a way...... october i met shilah. october i met haizq. october i met ayrie.

these... them....i appreciate them inclding both my bestfriends.

date with shilah

one good thing bout october, i saw johan

follwed by my lil lovely aman birthday

november.... i bet if any of you guys read my nov blogpost you guys know how my life hv been. yes emotional breakdown every few days. nov... is till couldnt believe im single and its over.nov.... we met.....thrice....november two people went out of my life, poof. november i met haba. november i met zubaidah. november i met hanafi. november i met aishah. november an everyday gg shool and home month. november sucks too....november, my laughter dosage is le classmates, families

december... i wont explain more on how many more people went out of my life. but wells. aniway strted it off well with meeting up my sec 5 classmates. i love them. followed by farahin birthday. yes perfect. met him fr breaking dawn, yah perfect but yah. kuala lumpur trip with mom and the best cus. legolnd trip with the best families. december... fou fleas straight, purfect. december, school holidays... december, yep failed 3 modules. december.....

that pretty much sums my 2012. thts all i could remember. well alot of thing which happen in 2012 was all the sweetes thing. why should i talk bout it,now. 2012....make me realise how much i miss my 2011 life. 2012, a year full of up and down. a year i realised happy ever after dont exist. a year i realised promises can be broken even when they have sworn it will be fulfilled. a year i realised people can change, and feeling will fade. a year which is teaching me to be independant slowly, be strong and move on frm our past. a year i realised tht by giving my all in a rs and being faithful will lead me nowhere. a year when alot of people went our of my life. a year realised no matter how much i want happiness in life, there wont be any. a year i realised......you were never meant for me. a year absolutely full of......lesson

{short updates fr last week/}

Friday11:26 AM

so hey, havent been updating fr two week i guess? how's life fr me? let me try recap uhum.
so yup been busy surveying the appropiate wedding service fr le brother upcoming wedding. yes weddin heheheh but lagi lame lah hahahah 2014!
but aniways it have been decided, and contract have all been sign. so we chose azure wedding! knw why? cos there's 4 livestation!!!!and furthermore the pelamin is nice.
but aniways we did surveyed a few. we went over to mawar prada

super nice right the lightning effect at the pelamin!!!!!

sry but hahaha too obssesed wif the lightning, so lawar heh.

but the price was not tht reasonable and the person in charge care too much bout $. then we surveyed mas creation

quite simple yet elegant. and the price was reasonable.

so yup brother wanted to take this (mas creation). but then the next week we headed to expo. and guess wht the azure wedding caught our eyes there. and the price was reasonable. so heheh settled and abg getting married on 14/9/14 :")

hahahahaha knw wht when we wanted to go to the mas creation nya jemputan. we (my famili) actually gatecrashed the wrong wedding hahahahaha. da amek makan, and da makan. sekali we realised kite dekat the wrong place. haahahhah wht is thzzz!

face for that day heheh :")

oh ya so guess wht, on my journey to singapore expo, i literally fainted in the .... train. yup train. le sigh. and mum and cukya were super worried and heheh suddenly feel so loved. :") hahahhaa k ya but yep this was one of the longest faint ever cos i became okay only when i hv reach expo. sigh. immune system getting weaker...and...weaker day by...day. met nisa, syawal and kak jannah over there uhm yep.and OMG MAKANAN KAT SANE SO BNYAKA ND SEDAP SEDAP!!!

heheheheh. it was more like an eating session ratehr than surverying session hahaha

best mee ever, i swear!!!

best shark fin soup too heheh

heheh, oki tht was actually last weekend. :") had flea last week at queensway, and suprisingly sales was good. a total of $140. when we opened at 3pm and closed at 6 plus. hahahha Alhamdulilah. will be having the same flea this week too, insyaAllah, amin.

tbh i didnt really go out ths holiday. like miracle, yes? hahahah yes. if back then, i wont even be at home. now...im at home alone and alone. hais wht is thz. so why didnt i go out. why, cos I STILL HAVENT RECEIVE MY BURSARY MONEY. sigh cheated my feeling cos they said it would come by 12 dec. now its alr 29 dec!!!!

but aniways mum have been super sweet wif me. when i found something i like outside, she'll buy fr me heheh. so yes went shopping wif mum a few days ago :") and bought fr aman a shoe, which is super cute. heh.

so yes heheheh mum belanja me ths pelpum dress cos she know i have been eyeing ths heheheh happy gurl is me. yayyyy

pastamania fr dinner finally after a few months of not eating ths. last i ate pastamani was our....a yr aniiversary uhm yup. sigh ok. so yes, how can i not love my mummy:")

i shall have my sleep now as its alr 3:30am. and i needa wake up at 10am later. still have quite a number of stuff i wanna update. especially my wrap up of 2012 since january till december since a new yr is coming in 4 days time. i shall do tht tmrw night. hows life? thts how you see it. families and families. quite eager to meet most of my friends, i shall do tht in january, when my money comes in. so yep.