so yes................lets start updating. its gg 5 months he left me. strong gurl is me. ok no. but aniways, i have been speding my time all over agin with him. meeting him after he book out, anticipating meetups with him, spending times with him on weekends, and sending him fr his book in..............

yes, its back to all those routine. 23rd jan..... that gurl went over to australia for a one week holiday. yes, so what does that mean? that mean that he'll be meeting now and then during the one week. obviusly i was happy, as tht just mean i can spent my time with him. so we met one day after she left........... nothing happen between us tht time. like no sign of smthing gonna happen or something. we met, ate, spent time till 11pm and off he went back to his camp. i didnt expect anything. a few days after that, we met.....on sunday....

 

 

and guess what guise, just guess it. ok yes, you got it right. oh before that, we otp-ed the day before and he said 'give me some time to sort things out, in the meanwhile, stop contacting guys pls' so............................yes.

 

met him the next day, and he actually kneel down infrnt of me, and repeatedly saying sorry, and yes asked fr a patch up. yes the thng which im finally waiting for. 4 months plus i waited fr tht moment, and it finally happend. he ask fr a patch up, and finally admit that he wasnt happy wif her. she was too clingy. she didnt listen to him like how i did. she goes against him like how i dont. she thz she that. all the imperfections and flaws. he even said tht 'remember when you curse me? its true' well........ i once remembered saying tht he wont be happy with her, and she will never understand him. thts not a curse thou sigh

 

i was happy, really happy when i knw tht i was maybe better thn her. i was happy knowing that he's coming back. i was happy cos he regretted leaving me. all those 1 yr 2 months is not gone to waste.

 

 

look how happy i was hahahha k no but yes. so after he told me bout everythng, the only thng i told him was to decide only after he have rightfully 'left' that girl. so yup. and so.................. we were under my blk, and so......... we terserempak wif my uncle. sigh. but guess wht la guess. thy salam each other and my uncle even smiled. sigh.

 

so..... coincidently tht day was izzat birthday. and he decided to tag along. crazy idea it is, but idk. when he met my aunt, uncle, mum, everyone didnt say anythng and even offer him food. sigh. negative or positive, we both hv no idea. sigh.

 

overheard my mum conversation the other day to my brother 'aliff tu bukannya jahat. dia tak kurang ajar, dia tau repsect org tua. tapi satu je la, dia tak jujur'

now i knw whts stopping them fr blessing him to be wif me. rly hv no idea how to ..... convince them

 

 

i swear i rly wanna be with him thou. alot of pple asked me to rly think it over. like if he can do it once, why cant he do it again. idk, but i dun hv thz thoughts......i mean, eveyone deserve a second chance. and if he will to do it again, insyaAllah akan ade karmanya. one wont be happy cheating forever. and knowing him, idk, i just hv tht faith tht he wont do it again. tht he promised me. my life is coming near to perfect now. slowly it is. all i need is him to work on thz rs, and show me tht he is really scared of losing me. show me tht thz rs can go really far. really2 far like how we intended it to be.  insyaAllah

 

 

 

im definitely not looking for a boyfriend with a so handsome looks, muscular body, tall guys and all. nope im not. im just looking for that average guy who really know how to take care of me, understand wht i rly want, not neglecting me. gg on a simple dinner date, a heart-to-heart talk every few days, a every night phone calls or text. just thz simple small things. and he, muhd aliff haidar, he definitely fits tht criteria. the only one who can really understand me, and will never neglect me despite hw busy he is. thz small little thngs which make me keep on falling for him.