been blogging once a month now, and its not a good thing. anywys its monday gg tuesday now, gg to be 3am in awhile. yup still wide awake.
april............ idk why but im not looking forward to how my life is now.....
its been four mnth since i last talked to my mum. 4 months, life suck.....everyone knw hw close i am wif my mum. we used to be very close, very very close...... i used to have a shopping partner, i used to have someone to eat dinner wif everyday, i used to have someone to listen to my rants 24/7, i used to help my mum wif her fleas, i used to do everythng wif her....... sadly, reality just have to hit me hard now. really hard. she stop talking to me, she strted ranting all the negative thng bout me to my brother, she stop cooking fr me, she stop thinking she.....hv a daughter......
what wrong hv i did? idk. i swear idk. she keep claiming im rude, i just beg to differ. i rly dont believe in being rude to someone who watch me grow.....
she list out all the things she dun like bout me. and just decided to claim 'aku takde anak mcm kau'
tell me if its heartbreaking.....idk.
she strt to show me favouritism and biasness. she cook only fr my brother, she seek help only frm him, she does everythng fr ...... him. only fr him....
each time im home, she'll slammed her room door and does her own thing. knowing im at home the whole day, hungry, she cooked food only fr herself. knowing im sick, she just ........ ignored me.. when im sick like fck.....
idk if i shoudl feel sad or idk. my perfect is gone, slowly everythng is gone....
i rly hv nothing more to look forward in life.
gg home, wif no food, wif no one to talk to, is rly tiring....... really tiring...
if im not closed to my mum, maybe, just maybe ill be ok. but no..... we are fcking close. and suddenly boom everythng is gone.
the thoght of giving up in life is rly high..........
she used to love me alot, now its all gone..
she used to bring me along when she's gg shopping, now we'll go alone..
she used to call me to ask if im hungry & buy me food, now im always eating maggie..
she used to drop by my werk, now she dont even care whr im werking..
she used to disturb me when she's bored, now she'll jst ignore me..
she used to forced to eat panadol whn im sick, now she dun even care...
she used to ask whr im gg, now she's more thn happy im nt home..
my life suck alot recently.....