~20 july babe, and im proud of my mum fer bringing me up,alone:") ~attached & belongs to the best xx ~i have suffer too many setback. bring it on. i will stay strong
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{mum,brother and boyf, they mean eveyrthng to me/}
Friday3:14 AM
6pm, friday evening. enjoying my offday with just my lappy, loud music and ice lemon tea.
times when you are alone are usually when you really tend to overthink. just overthink bout every possiblities. woke up yesterday morning and overheard my mum nagging. she said ths, exactly thz to my brother ' adek kau tu mcm binatang, cume dia banatang yg tak ade otak' i really have no idea how to react to that, hence i countinue sleeping, at least i can escape frm reality. i used to have the best mum. the mum which is not just my mum, but more of a best friend. the mum who always always share everything to me and vice versa. the mum who always msg me bout every other thing. the mum which is very supportive. the mum which most of my friends are jealous of. idk bout now. somehow or rather, my mum might think 'asl aku ade anak mcm dia' 'aku menyesal mengandungkan dia'. Beg my pardon, but i dont know.. i have been really really independant. school and werk. and not eating at schl as i do not have any allowance. gg home expecting food when there's just maggie. idk. i'll not complain still. the only one whu have to hear me complaining will just be my boyf.  i still will say im blessed i hv the perfect family, still. as much as my mum throw harsh words on me, i still love her. why. cos she spent 19 years of her life bringing me up, perfectly. my relationship. it have been nearly 3 months we are back together. perfect. i shall just say i do not regret getting back together with him. i shall say i have gt back my perfect life.i shall say i ahve things to look forward every now and then. i shall say my life hav gt a lil bit more meaning now. i shall say im officially quite attached to him. (especially when i hv only him to complain things and story-telling) there are times i just wish he is not in ns, like he is done with ns. with him being in ns, i just find myself to be super clingy. just annoyingly attached and clingy. not to defend myself, but i do give him alot of freedom. freedom where he gt do whatever with all his friends. im just clingy when i dont get to talk to him at all in a day. what makes me happy? just a 10 min talk with him at random time of the day. just tht with simple gdnight wish to end my day. attached and clingy? idk if tht defines me. 
nevertheless, im glad we managed to spent pur time whenever we are free. long way to go, we still have a long way to go. sometimes i wish, both of us already have a stable career so we can just get married now.i swear, enduring the feeling of missing someone is, damn just too hard.
sigh i miss him..........
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