can i say phck my life? No i dun wanna say ive gt an unfortunate life and stuff. im rly grateful. but...i cant stand it wen things doesnt turn out like i how i want it to be. ive always want a long lasting relationship. rly. once im in a relationship, i rly want everything to be perfect. jz now, he doubted our rs. and tht sucks alot. rly. it seems like he dun wanna this rs to last long. seems like he had enuf of me. seems like he is giving me a hint tht he gonna leave me. :(( im on the verge of breaking down wen thinking abt tht. he cant leave me. i rly love him veryy veryy much. and if he were to leave me,huh. i can frgt about having an awesome rs and marriage in the future. rly. i may just lose faith in guys. haish. i just hope he will stop doubting our rs. im hoping tht he would trust me. as i rly have trust my hart and soul to him.. pls lets make our 2016 true k? im looking frward to tht aweSome moment. i know tht we can last if we really put in effort in maintaining our rs. our rs gonna be an awesome one. im pretty sure abt tht. im confident tht we can last real long, not just 3-6 mnths. insya'allah kita akan kekal lamer.

after done with school, kelasmates proceed fr luch at tamp one. kentalans. and so , i decided not to follow them. met bf at paya lebar. met his aunt fr a short while. then headed to bedok to eat mee soto and mee rebus. yum yum yum. hekhek. bf cut hair at one of the shop there. hahahah dia sedih sbb kene gunting rambut. tatink nya,stakat rambut da membebel panjang2. tsk. hahaha. lepaks awhile till 7 plus. and proceed to redhill to meet shilah. while waiting fr shilah, bf perangai irits. ceh. ke aku eh? ah tak. dia yg iritzx. hahaha enth. shilah arrived around 730. and off we went to jurong. walk fr 15 minit wif high heels:( kaki mcm nak patah. tsktsktsk. went to malaleuca there. bla3. headed to macd and have our supper. had our chit chatting session. and we can see tht shilah is feeling very stress. furthrmore, daniel called her late on tht day. hahahha cute. went home at 11.30 on tht day. upon arriving home, both mum and brothr is ordering me on wat to do during my holidayzx. wah sian. baru nak makan tdo makan tdo mcm babi. sekali da kene jadi cinderella. hiak.

okay time to update my blog. lets strt with school. its the end of semester alr! yay yay yay. im veryyy happy. i really need my holidays. everyday never slip due to school is no big joke. and oh, lets talk about the submission day for school. school sucks big time plss. i love 2dart. love very much. bf have help me alot for my final painting. he didnt follow his family to jb, just to help me with the painting. veryy happy and glad as he is there helpin me. and so we stayed at school till late night finishing off the final painting. and oh, he suprised me on tht day! nyeheheh. i thought he was asleep at home. but, no. he was actually right in frnt of my kelasroom wen i was buzy calling his phone trying to wake him up. nyehehe sayang dia banyak2. heh. and soo, the nest day was mu submission cum presentation dayy. yay yay. which mean 2d art is finally over. so happy. positive comments. and a lil comment fr improvemnt. suke lecturer mcm gini. and the next day was my most hatest module. fck m&f pls. and fck the lecturer pls. soo many sarcasm solely fr me. wah. 'thank you for bothering to come' çan i fail you?'ís this your work? how can i be sure this is your work?''did u ask pple to do fr you?' wahhh fck fck fck. aku haru2 tak tdo buat journal bodoh tu. dia kate bukan keje aku eh eh eh. haish. sedih sia hidup. aku tak tdo jahit bende tu, lagi boleh ckp begini. haiszx. but im not bothered wif m&f. so ya. takla bingit sgt. and oh, nasib baik clasamate tlg bbl nn cikgu. tapi ckgu biadap ckp''dont bother helping her. she dont appreciate ur help'ah fck. aku mcm pernah hutang dia nyawa gitu sebelum ni. pfft. tatink sia lecturer gini mcm. and aftr tht stupig presentation day, its time to enjoyyy. yay yay yay, wah love holidays.

ohh, have i mention befre? shilah and daniel are officially in a relationship. uh on the 3rd i think. hehhe yay so happy fr them . and happy fr shilah. since she doesnt have a good bf befre this, im knfrm tht she can have happiness wif daniel. thou, i just know him fr a hort period of time. i think he can take good care of shilah. yay, and i rly didnt expect this. hahah, she used to be my best fren in primary. and we didnt contct fr sucha long time. and now, we are together back again due to our boyfriends. nyehehheh unexpected things happen whut. :) hope her rs and mine rs will go on smoothly and hope we can be this happy alwayszx.

okay, its exactly 10 days since i last post something here. tsk, having several social website is hard huh? k wtv. uhuh. where shud i strt? okay. lets recap last week raya. oh yea. went raya wif marsialians last week. yay yay yay. both me and bf did not sleep on tht dayy. we was on the phone till mrning. met him at 6am under my block. hahahha, mum said tht i was crazy as i went out in raya clothing at 6am. lol. headed to macd wif bf. and have our breakfast there. everything went well....went,i accidentally blurted our something which made him angryyyy. ooh o. spent hours comforting him as i know im in the fault. luckily he is fine befre we met everyone else. fuh. okayzx. met una, yani, marhamah, salihah at wdlnds mrt.. then waited fr haslam..then headed to remy hse. uhuh. tattoo dia makin bnyak. tak suke. yucky. g mampos nn dia. and daniel, shilah came aftr tht. went to several houses, befre rahman and shirin join us. and here and there , i recall certail marsilings mmries. kinda miss those times. and its not a good timing to visit my home tht dayy. mum just cried aftr fighting wif uncle. i feel soo bad. still mum cooked fr my friends. so thankfu;. sayng mak. headed to shilah hse and something happen there between bf and syirin. ah g mams. haishzx. bf hse was the last one. and..okay i dun feel..anything yet. just tht i remembered wat his mum said to him, ehich im kinda irrtated. uhuh. bf sent home. and....uhuh, frgt wat happen afterwards. hekhek, mmry becoming weaker.

aku makin takot dengn nie semer. i hv come back to reality. and it sucks. i kept thinkng tht the same exaCt thng can happen to me too. kalau dia yg da lamer, boleh mcm gitu je kau buat. apatah lagi aku yg baru ni. suMpah aku takot. mmg skg kau ckp, tak akan and bla3. but things happen. and im the kind of girl who always expect the unexpected. and unfortunately, watever i thought of will alwys come true. whyyyy. Haish.

heloo. :) 5th of september marks our first monthsary :) yay yay. ok to be honest, i find it quite fast. tsk. its like just yesterday i met him fr the first time, just ysterday he broke up wif his ex, just yestrday he sent me to school and work, just yesterday he asked me to be his gf, and just yesterday we had our first hug, kiss and stuff. woo,but amazingly, it have been happening fr a month. heheheh. ok and so i have been in a relationsho fr a month. and to be honest, i dont feel any pressure being his gf, yet. yes, i find him quite understanding. control freak? ok. i bet everyone will be worried, protective of their own gf/bf. and its normal if my bf reacted in a certain wayy. im fine with it. and luckily he doesnt control me to a large extent. amin amin. in this one month, i dun think we have been into a real big fight. as far as im concern, not yet. but, minor fights, yes. quite a numbr of time. and i dun mind abt tht. like all of us knw, these fights will make our relationshp more stronger & bla3. hmm. idk. he seems quite unpredictable at times. wenever he is upset, angry, disappointed with me, he wouldnt tell nor show it to me. and tht sucks. as i have to figure it out myself. and to be honst, i suck at tnt. i will tend to think negative stuffs. and, i believe tht would worsen the matter , right, right. idk y but he like to mention abt othr guy to me. to be honest, i dont feel appreciated if he did tht. i mean, i swear dun knw wats the motive, haish. but i dont mind aniways. as long as he stop talking abt break up. ii have nothing to complain abt him. really. i fnd him awesome in his own way now. but i just hope and pray and wish he wont change. thts all im asking for in this relationshp. wat make me love him, was his personality,character. so, thst all im asking frm him. i will try my best to be a very good gf. a gf which he expect of. thou, i want him not to have high expectation from me. watver it is, i know he can accept me the way i am now, and thts awesome. in this one month, he have done quite alot for me. suprises and suprises and suprises. and i totally love tht. hehehhe, kan sweetzx hari2 ader suprise. evn thou he is tired and sleepy , he still waited fr me aftr school or waited fr my txt, or waited till late night just to on the phone. and he have even nvr sleep just because he is worried. and i feel really bless to have this kind of bf. hehehhe :)) i hope he will continue to treat me this sweet , be this faithful, be this way till how long our relationship gonna last :)))) amin. and i really love my boyfriend, aliff haidar:)))

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okay, i know i havent been updating much. and now, wen i have the enrgy to do so, ive completly frgtten wat i did few days back. ok suckss. oh, new module have strted. new block again. oh yeah. i kinda like these two modules im having now. 2D art is awhsome. woo. its all abt drawing, sketching, painting and stuffs. fun fun fun. now thts art :)) hehhehe,like. and next is material and furnishes. this is also quite fun and i find it useful. but, i kinda hate it as it involve CHEMISTRY AND PHYSIC. omgggg. but watever it is, we are halfway thru these models. anothr 3 weeks to holidayyssss! gereks:))) ok omg i cnt wait fr holiday. i wanna sleep and eat and lepak and shop and laugh and enjoy like its my only holiday!

helooo. come lets talk about raya! ok, first of all, i love this yr raya because this yr is the first time ever i reach home at 12! every othr year, i will always reach home at 2am. tsk. went nenek hse at 3. as usuals, aunt and uncle will be at my hse early. and strt la kecoh2 rayaa. hehehhee. sukaa. and this yr, is the first yr, kita klua g umah nenek siangg. and only my aunt was there. kakak2 semer belum smpai. mcm biase. dtg je, 'eh eh cantik nya bakal anak menantu aku ni' tsktsktsk takder maknenya aku nak jadi menantu dia :/ haish seramm betol la. pfft. watched a couple of movies there. main bunga api. bla3. and off we went home at 6! wahh so happpy. hehehehhehe. befre heading home, singgah umah kak jannah jap. mum was scared to meet in laws. hahah, so cute. kak jannah mum so baik. sungguh patut abg matae nan kak jannah. :))) went home at 8. and aunt cukya and cusin all came shortly aftr tht, have a small family kecoh2 rayaa again. and took some family photo. and off to umah wak. itu arwah atok punya adek. hehehek. hilang rindu pat atok. heh. aftr tht, brothr sent aunt cukya family home and i teman him. and he soo noisyy. :< penat aku. tsk. 2nd dayy , i never go school. due to rayaa. hekhek. befre tht, met him early in the mrning. for? oh, we went to bbdc. and breakfast at macd. then...lepak till 2. rushed home and siap-ed for raya. met everyone at aunt cukya hse. and soo kecoh -.- tsk. off to around 6 houses. and batt low on tht day. so boringg. cnnt text wif bf. boo. went home around 1-2 am. and bf was so worried as he didnt received any txt frm me. hehehehehk so cute. but aniways my hp spoil at the wrong time. ape boleh buat. tsk. woke up at 6am. and kol-ed him. and...he ddnt sleep. :/ kesian. met hi at gombak fr breakfasst.and he was supposed to go fr theory at bbdc. but endd up didnt go. tsktsk. i was supposed to go school. but endd up skipping one module. phkme. boo. eh and oh, he waited fr me near school untill i end kelas at 6! sweetzxx. hehehehk

okay okay ~ come lets recap wats have been happening these few days......ah, lupe :( haix. ok, last weekends, spent my day spring cleaning my home. fri,saturday stayed at home and clean3.and sunday, met him, after three days of not meeting. oh yeah. met him at cck and....ok nothing happen. we talk and talk and talk till 6. & off we went home. buka at home. and ok, i remember, it was the last dayy of puase. got a txt frm bf just a min bfre breaking fast <3 and im sooo happy as i fast alot this yr. yay yay. while helping out with mum , heard takbir raya. and i swear, atok came into my mind instantl. :/ tsk ok enuf mira. ayo ayo. and, we rested till 9. and off we wnt to cukya hse. then at 12 off to geylang. mak kau. geylang da mcm ape. punya la berselerak. punya la rimass aku. tsktsk. went home at 3. and sediakan bende yg patot. dan aku mula tdo kul 530 :< besoknya bngn kul 11. tsk tsk.