So hey, happy 2013 guiseee :") lets all have a bless year, this year. im not gonna say 2013 better be smooth, or 2013 spare me your sorrownes, or 2013, i want happiness and no sadness. no, this is all rubbish. rubbish. every single year, we will encounter things which will change us. good thing AND bad thing. every single year. well, 2012 do teach me alot of lesson. im sure 2013 im gonna go through more, but wells, life.


did i accomplish 2012's resolution? nope, i dont think so. 2012 was all about fun and fun and fun till i forgot whats my purpose of living, fr awhile. well tbh, my only resolution was to last long in my relationship. yes thats the only resoultion i had fr 2012. did i achieve it? no. my fault for not working towards it? maybe, partly, my fault? if i did control him a bit more, doubt him a bit more, think negative a bit more, i might prevent him from...cheating on me. but wells, its over. that was 2012. lets close that chapter. and lets start a new one!


2013 resolution? im not gonna say excel in studies and shit cos im gonna go with the flow in terms of education. i dont really have that much motivation in me, so ill have to just force myself? yup, but whatever it is, no im not gonna quit nor changed schl or whatever. ill make sure im gonna finish by diploma. by hook or by crook, i better be someone who have a diploma cert. im worth more than that, im sure. just that, im becming more....lazy and demotivated sigh.

2013. i shall try to gain more weight. i feel so anorexic now. 35kg for a 19 yrs old girl? what is thsss. sigh. aim to be at least 42kg. at least. i dont know what more should i do. if you guys gonna ask me to eat more then.... forget it cos, i can eat up to ten bowl in a meal. and still dont grow fat. le sigh. shall try GNC milkshake. shall try.

2013. famili. friends. i got the best of these. blessed to be born in this famili. cheer me up whenever im down by doing things i love. wait fr me before watching my favourite shows. bringing me to concert they dont even like knowing i like them. yes best mum and brother ever including my dearest azrul, izzat,aman and cukya. friends? the best bestfriend ever i had since secondary; ayrie & aisyah. how can i not love them. forever there fr me be it through phone, watsapp or by my side. the best girlfriends; zu iqah farahin and my rp-ians and those which stood by me when i was facing a rough time in october 2012

2013. better muslimah that is. no, i havent change in terms of appearance. still in the midst of my ngaji. shall master it, and once i fully believe im a good muslimah, i shall start on my apperance. insyaAllah amin.

2013. love. if you guys remember my 2011's resolution was not to fall for sweetalkers. but i ... did ha ha ha. dont bother talking to me bout love now. no, im not gonna say it suck. i have experience the beautiful side of it. its really beautiful, blessed. love suck? its the people we were involved with before this which make it suck. if a good guy comes along, then .... we'll see.

2013. never ever believed in promises. 2012, i was fed with alot of promises. alot. those promises make me think ill be happy. those promises, i thought it will never ever be broken. those promises, once he left.....not one, not two promises is broken, its all.... almost all promises is broken. he promised me we gonna go legoland together on december. where? yes i did, i went with my fam. yes he did. he went with her. he promised me im the only one who gonna support his career, be there fr his kendarat. now? its her. all his kendarat is her friends and...her. he promised me he gonna engaged with me once he's done with ns. where? he prolly said the same thing to her. he promised me he wont ever leave me for another girl. fcking where is this promise?

2013. lets just live life to the fullest shall we? yes. be happy. no point thinking bout our past when they dont think bout us. things happen for a reason. and remember, the one we accidentally met in our life might just be someone important in our life. appreciate each and everyone of them