when you msg me, i got totally excited. i was thinking if there will be some chance between us. i was thinking if we would be msging something really wow. something which would really captivate my hart or wat. bt to my dismay, u didnt. each time you msg me, it was like a stranger msging me. and truth to be told , i dun like tht feeling:/ haish. and our conversation was like in less than 5 msg. buhh. wtf sia. last time we used to txt up to 100 in a day. now? haish. wth. i hate it pls. and why must this like always happen to me. haish. sedih nya.

hi. on the 24th feb, i didnt sleep again. heheh. k wtf. i spent three hours watching hindi at youtube. shiok. pagi2 da feeling2. heh. at 7, i was alr siap-ing to meet zu. heheh. we were goin swimming! yeay. at last swim, ade partner, ceh. hahah. and soo, met her around 830 am at sengkang int. whoo. yea, we rly did went to sengkang swimming pool. the mmnt we gt there, we eat first. of course pls. makan imp. ceh. and soo started our activity around 9am. and this girl told me she dun knw how to swim. can i slap her face?-_- she knw, yaknw. buhh. and soo, we swam fer strait two hr? idk. haah, we didnt even have a watch. we played the slide. and thts was awhsome pls! heheh. i like! k wtf. and actually, we really did some stupid stuff there , yaknw. hahah. k shutup. between me and her only :) and soo, we went home around 6. and it was raining realy heavialy. pfft. -_- kesiian kita. went compaas point. and ohmygod, ade body shop atrium. :( can u believ it? the lotion was like 4 fr 10 dole? tak klaka siia tu. part myra tkder duit plaq tuu. haishaishaish. ah wtv. and soo headed home around 8. zu, nak swim lagi, pls! heheh. kita kan da pro,ceh, haha -_-

Hi. like finally, he confessed to me his feeling. err, its not exactly confessed ey? k wtv. wat i knw is tht he finally sound me. which was expected actually. his reaction and attitude towards me was obvious. even those around me can realize it. buhh. bt, its hard fer me to accept someone and let tht someone be part of me. furthemore, i have regard him as my close fren. serius toking, its hard. so im sry to let u down. and ohh, i knw wat i said to u might be hurtful. bt im sry. and truth to be told, im proud tht u have gt the gut to tell me. at least u did. :) and pls, aafter this treat me normaly okok. friends pls. :/ jangan la jauhkan diri hor. tak suka gitu. heheh. :)

feb 22--didnt sleep the whole day. -_- as always. soo, went swimming like alone near my hse. spent approximately 3 hours there. was pissed off wif my ownself as i cant really swim tht good animore. k wth. aha, went for a little shopping awhile. bought a cotton on dress and skirt:) k wtf. da tkder duit, lagi nak belanja. k wtv. then, went home and siap-ed. met ayrie at 1. he accompanied me to my job interview. phew, it was located at indoor stadium. soo the jauh. haish. and soo, interview-ed and we started wasting our not soo precious time by roaming around. hehs. if only we got the money, i guess we would be going bowling or playing time zone sey. pfft. malangnya, masing2 tkder duit. :( and soo, we went home quite early tht day. went home, cook, then tido mati sey myra. kul 8 mlm tido, bsk tgh-hari baru bgn .. -_- perangai tak bagus pls. :/

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hi. some people thought that im weird. because i still havnt got myself engage in a relationship. buhh. nie pun nak weird ke? im oni 17 pls. oni 17. not even legal. huh. while some others tot that no one wants me. aha. lols? ahr2 la. myra kan tak lawar, jahat plaq tu. buhh. -_- kau pernah jadi kawan rapat aku. and i dun expect this frm you ok. abe, yang aku reject selama nie tu ape? ohh, aku pakse drg sound aku la. lupa. nak famous ah katekan. -_- you and your bf, theres nutin grt abt you guys. kau nak buat aku jealous dgn krg pnya swit2? ceh, tak dapat la eh pls. bkn aku tak pernah melalui tu semer. buhh. while some others tot im desperate for love. aha. nie lagi merepek pls. desperate? pfft. yeke. bukan kau? selame nie aku dgr cerita pat skola pasal kau tu smr ape? buhh. haish. there are soo many kind of pple in this world. and trust me, those assumption is soo hurtful okok. and oh, doesnt mean i talk abt love, im desperate fer it. erw, such an un-cool assumption pls. -_-

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hi. today ( 20 feb 2010 ) , i went to sakura wif farain. :) i like. bring me places wer there are foods, im gonna be vry hepi. heheh. met her at 6pm. we went to jurong west Sport centre. sakura was full there. somehow or rather, we got a place. and oh, this was her treat. idk why, the sudden treat. ahah. rezeki beb. heheh. and, each person was like $28. :/ pfft. thanks god fer this kind of fren. =) and ohh, someone else was supposed to follow. bt wtv heck to her reason hor. pfft. soo we spent roughly 3 hour at sakura. and yea, again it happen. i was till hungry, yet, she was alr full -_- tak suka la mcm gini. pfft. k wtv. then headed to jp, finding some stuffs. after tht went home. and yes, spent a grt time wif her. wells, many stories to share, like always. and soo, here i am, reach home aroun 10 plus. =) and ohh, you didnt txt me. sad or wht myra. buhh.

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*the girl above:my bestest friend* indeed she is. the moment she found out tht im facing some sort of problem, she txted me and calm me down. and she made herself free to mit me the next day, just to knw abt my problems. and evn ayrie :) i swear to god that im touch wif both of their attitude.. even my ex bestfren didnt even botherd to do this. huh. k wtv. and thank god, i felt much beta, after revealing my secret to her. yes. im determine to tell her. if not, she wouldnt knw whu am i. soo, i have got to confess it. and, obviously she cares abt me. otherwise, she wouldnt be crying upon listening to my secret kan. thank god. and yes, she told her sister abt me. and obvioulsy i dun mind. however, i just hope tht thy would treat me normally after this. im kipping my finger cross abt this. i dont want them to sympathize wif me. i dun need sympathy to be a strong girl. myra rasa myra boleh teruskan hidup dengan bahagia tanpa ade org simpati dgn nasib myra. semer org ade masalah. cuma nasib myra je kene masalh yg mcm gini. masalh yang myra sendiri tak tahu kenapa tuhan suruh myra hadapi. :/

i wonder how did u manage to carry on wif ur life, normally. its weird. because, frankly speaking, i cant. im too used getting ur msges every hour. every night, you would update me wer u go, wat u did , and stuff. frankly speaking, i miss all that. i miss the moment you fetch me from work. and most importantly, i miss ya saying all those swit stuuf. :/ every minit, i would check my phone. hoping tht you would msg me. bt no. u didnt. why. is is tht easy fer u to frget me?k wtv. i asked fer it. now i hav got to ans fer it. oh my. gonna strt a new life dude, w/o you. :/ nie la masalahnya kalau seseorg itu da menjadi sebahagian dari kita. we'll find it hard to let it go. pfft. :(

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& u didnt even msging me dude. why. u didnt even bother asking me why this have to happen. why. and u went to sleep when its only 1 am. why did u lie to me. why. have you hate me. pfft, go ahead dude. i deserve it, i guess :/

And so, im being thrown out from someone life. again. yes again. its all my fault rite? tak. bukan salah myra. myra buat nie semer untuk kebaikan dia. he doesnt deserve me. in fact, no guys deserve me. and soo, he might be thinking that im making use of him. :/ do i look like sumone whu wud make use of you. no.. i aint that bad dude. i have got my reason for not wanting to be in a relationship wif u. and trust me dude, once u knw the truth, u wouldnt even want to be with me. i guess,u wud leave me immediately. like i said, im not cut out fer anyone, including u. trust me, i rly want to be wif u. thats y, i insist u to be my friend. bt wat i got from you? *i wouldnt want to be friend wif the girl i love.* huh. trust me, it rly hurts ok. why do i need u as my friend? its because, at least i knw, whats happening to you. at least, im still able to talk and confide and complain to you. im still able to show my care and concern to u. but, no. that isnt wat u want. u want me out of ur life. and soo, wat if i say that i have fallen in love wif u.thus, thats y i still want u in my life. durh. of course u would be saying * abe, kalau kau suka aku, kenape tknk matae nan aku?* huh. then, i guess just frget abt it dude. because u wouldnt want to knw the answer, trust me.

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Hi. im here to blog about my feeling. thats all. i have got no story to share, i guess. ahh, nanti2 bole story. org tgh sedih nie. :/ k, myra nak start emotional, boleh? hmm. i have got millions (k fake) of problems. bt, i have got no one to share it with. yes, i know. i got aisyah and others. bt still, those problems i shared wif them are the minor ones. i dared not burden them wif my prob, ya see. Ya Allah, kirimkanlah myra seorg hamba, yang mampu dengar rintihan myra. :( Trust me, i rly need someone. my problem=no solution at all. the answer to my problem, hanyalah di akhirat. di sana lah, segala masalah myra akan selesai. haish. why in the earth must u come into my life, my world! i mean, trust me, w/o u, i totally love my life. i got the best mum & brother & aunt & friends. bt, yet, u make my life feel so miserable. whyOHwhy. kau tak takot dosa ker? kau tak takot tuhan ker? huh. aku kalau bole, mcm nak pegi polis la, bia kau mampos. bt, noo. i wont revenge, dude. i dun believe in karma , too. i believe in Allah. for, wen there is Allah, there is justice, dude. sry, bt, im a strong girl ok.

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hi. last thurs, went to seoul garden wif kawan rapat yg sentiasa berada di sisi myra apabila myra ada masalah. pfft, panjangnya. k cut short. went seoul garden wif aisya and napi :) wee. its a treat. wells, due to the fact that i won him fer olevel, he gotta blnja me. eh no, us. hehs. before mitin him, went window shopink wif aisya. supposedly, she nid to buy either skul shoe or bag. bt, naa. she didint buy any of the skul stuff. instead, she bought shirt at cotton on -_- buhh. k wtv. she bought one fer me too(y)heheh. went seoul garden at 3.30. wells, eating is always my top priority. soo didnt even bother talking to them. heh. at 5, aisyah went home due to certain reason. sad me. i alone wif napi. bt whu cares. food doh. makan lagi imp pls. while he was alr full and hav stop eating, i was still finding ingredient to cook. lolzx pls. perangai budak gemuk. tapi tak gemuk pun. ishq. aniways, im glad that everyhtink is goin well between me and him. heheh. ok, kwn terdekat je phm :) pfft. something, not knowing anythink is the best. soo, we went out frm there arund 6, i guess. and ohh, i was told that the cataians tot that im into wzn. lolzx. sry, bt he is nt up to my standard pls. buhh pls. supposedly, wanted to went hm. bt, feey told to teman her go buy stuff fer her D&D. so, went JP, to mit her. :) yea, we went round and round, bt found nothing suitable. instead, we bought mask. buhh. and soo headed home, around 10pm.

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hi. im confused wif my own feeling pls. ishq. its not as if i dun knw hw it feels like to be in love. i must be strong. not to be dupe by swit-talkers. but, he isnt swit-talker kan? he really love me, kan? enta. i dun have an answer to all that quest. all i knw is that he have gt the same attitude as famy. kalau famy yang da berjanji mcm2 pat myra, at last mungkir janji. even he can rite? enta eh. yes, i have told my fren abt him. and thy told me to go on wif him. thy said that--tuhan tu maha adil. dia da ketemukan kau dgn famy, untuk kau tau bkn semer lelaki baik. tu sbbnya,dia ketemukan kau dgn dia plaq, untuk kau tau masih ade laki yang baik dan ikhlas di dunia nie. hmm. yea, wat she said is right. and have sumhw or rather brainwashed me. idk. show me that ur serius in life, i might give u a chance dude. earlier on, he txted me, asking me a random quest. he asked, if he might stand a chnce to be wif me in future. truth to be told, idk. i have gt no answer fer that yet. wat i knw is that, i want him to remain in my life. never walked out from my life. thats i all i ever wanted.eventhou he cant be wif me as my bf, i still want him as my fren. thats is all i knw. bt, i guess he might stand a chance. yes. he might stand a chance to date me, and be my bf. please, show me ur sincere, then i wun hestitate much. hwever, i dun wanna expect much frm u. as u dun really knw me. im sure, once u knw abt me, u will throw me out of ur life. and that is wat im most scared of. :/ im praying hard that u wun throw me out of life aftr knowing abt me. in fact, i hope i have ur support. :/

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hi. last tuesday , went job hunting wif zu. heheh. we were enthusiastic enuf, i guess. huhu. met each other arund 1030am. yea, im late. wells, supposedly we shud mit by 10am. heh, at least, i did not paitao. soo, we strted off at bukit panjang plaza. soo, we went on different shops to asked fer job. and, i got a job, strait away, at the first shop i headed. ok, lucky me, i guess. i got beauty language, something similar to sasa. soo, we went to lot one, imm and jurong point after that. wells, zu still hadnt found any suitable job. as always, we gotta a lot of stuff to share about. soo, half of our energy were gone due to the sharing of stry & talking craps. durh, wen wif zu, talking crap is a must pls :) from serius talk to flashback of our pathetic badae and to our recent updates. bla3. many other things happen. and yes, we both anti budak kecik. till, we both give a pissed off face to kids at mcd. pfft. and yea, we also got lost at, idk wer, boon lay i guess. pfft. pathetic us. till our leg have gotta suffer from a 30 minit walk. buhh. k wtv. soo, at last, we headed home around 7.30 . tired much, till i strait went to slip , the mmnt i reached home -_-

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hi. since im not working. im soo gonna meet my dearest friends :) treat wif frens fer seoul garden, da lame ditangguh2kan. sedih or wat. takper. myra da tak keje. anytime, can gooo! =) heheh. abe hepi tk keje? -_- lol. no, im giving myself a wik break. then, job hunting again. must save money for school la myra :(

hi. one more story abt me. ;( i no more work liao. i love my job so much. k tu fake. im nt loving my job. its fking tiring okay. customer non stop. like wth. but, i love the awesome people there. :( i love all my workmates. haish. sedih plsh. hmm.k, here naa, story. on the 5th of feb, i wnated to take mc. not because i sick la. im taking mc as im supposed to tag along to the police there. bt, i sympathize wif my workplace, soo i cancel the mc thingy. my workmate txt asked me to come, bt abit late. supposedly, i shud report at 1, bt i came at 4, as told. lucky me, manager aint over there. ok wtv. so, the next day, wen i woke up. i read my msg-es. and my manager scold me.. she say--you not happy you nvr come. you happy you come. you hve been doing that countless time. if u dont want work here, just quit! :( sedih plus marah pls. bila pat masa aku buat company tu mcm bapak aku punya? satu kali je per. bnyak dia pe countless time. merepek pls. grr. tak sedar aku da banyak buang masa keje sana. -_- eii, tak suka sey org yang tak berhati perut. da laa org msia. lagi nak kerek pat negeri nie. grr. ah lantak la.. fyi eh, bila aku keje sana, aku dapt tiga job offer. ish, tau terima tau. grr. buhh. bingit pls :/

hi. february did not went smoothly fer me, i guess? sad pls. ok cut short la eh.. chinese new year falls on the 3rd and 4th right. so, basically its ph la kan. soo, i can relax frm work. on the 2nd, trust me, i can die of fatigue-nez. buhh. like seriusly. the place im wrking is soo big, and there is like only 3 workers? all malays la, like duhh. eve of cny wat. but, this is bully sey. :( tired. count my manager lucky la i want to work and help them. -_- customer trying clothes non stop! bt , didnt even bother to buy. grr. beta dun try, pls. pfft. k, thats one story. just to complain hw tired im i am. lol? k wtv. next. on the 3rd, receive some stupid news. wells, my cusin was caught and being handcuffed to police division. i mean, like sriusly, dia kene tangkap. kerana pekara bodoh pls. wells, i knw tht he did involve himself in a so called gangsta. he was caught for gang fighting. buhh. zaman slash-slash da basi kan? pfft. k i dun really wish to tok abt this. my hart pain toking abt this. for god sake, he is my bestest cousin. and yet, this have to happen ;( if really he nid to go to boys home, trust me, i wud be lonely enuf. haissh. k wtv. i have gt anoder story :( next post pls. i hate posting something very long. -_-

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hi. the eve of chinese new year, 2nd feb, i end work early. at 7.30. since i dindt went to east coast park (luckily), i made plan. heheh. txted feeyana to watch movie. and sayang her pls. she soo good. she said yes on the spot. and we met an hour later. heheh. she got herself a big ang pao. sooo, she belanja me. and, we watched it in 3d. huhu. yes, she treat me. soo, i belaja her mc-cafe. :) basically, we dun really knw this show. hahah. wen we were inside, she was like warning me0 make sure crita bagus. kalau tak aku nak minatk refund ah. -.- heh. and lucky me, the move was superb, awhsome! couldnt stop laughing pls. heheh. soo worth our time and money, of course. went home at 12 am. met him at mcd, fer late night dinner, i guess. hehs. and, we went home around 1. :)

hi. january has ended, awhsomely, i guess? wells, i got what i want. somehow or rather, i got myself a place in poly. rp pun rp laa. janji poly, kan :/ hmm, in term of finance, i think, there aint really any problem. i did spent my money wisely, i guess. heheh. at least, im proud of myself. i paid fer my rebonding. i paid to highlight my hair. i paid fer the treatment. i paid fer my xperia phone. heheh. at least, i m becoming more matured, pls. heh. and yea, in term of friendship, im not sure. i guess, im wif her, we are okay alr kan? hmm, idk. that one, go wif the flow laa yer. matters of the heart? hmm, i dun knw. i cant accept him yet. due to some reason. yes, trust me, im very choosy. yerla, nak buat matae, lame2. bukan sehari-dua je per. -.- okay. jan over, feb, pls be nice to myra and semer kwn2 myra, pretty pls *.*