saap! :) went town wif nad & shahirah yesterday. supposedly, wanted to go to lil india , to watch malay movie. but, the show which we wanted to watched is not in cinemas, yet. grr. so, we spent alomst 30minit at jurong eat, to decide wat show we gonna watch. lol. nad wanted to watch something borrowed. i wanted to watched hello ghost. khekhe. so thy giv in to me. sayangs dorang. rachel was alr on her way back home. if not, she joined too lur. and we headed to the cathay. sesungguhnya,i dun even knw wat show is hello ghost. so i keep convinving nad tht its a good show. hahaha. and went to have our dinner at mcd. and headed to the cathay at around 5plus. and omgggg, crite dia best sekali. hehehhe. reallly lei. klakar plus sedeh plus annoying uh. >< and so, it ended around 730. and so, we girls lepaks and camwhore and gossip till 930 :) yayayay. we are happy girls. lol. i hope shahirah did had a grt day wif us. nad and i specially go out on tht day sbb nak belanja shahirah wayang :) for her belated badae. we soo good. heheh.

hello. :)i have finally bought a ripcurl wallet. i is happy. khekhe. k wtf. went to vivo the other day wif farah. a last minit plan, actually. she wanted to buy doraemon stuffs. so we searched fr it at vivo. but, none caught our eye. went to forever 21, and i saw the stuffs which i want. omgomg. :( bt, i cant buy ah. nak save duit. those stuff,buy online cheap. >< ok, my gaji finish already in one hr. bought 200g of famous amos, yumyum :) ceh tak perlu. ok bye

hi. today, i woke up rather late, hmm, maybe 12. ya, and he suddenly txted me. yes im kinda happy. wells, he txted me, i knw to kills his boredom. bt at least iknw, he still remeber me. i reply-ed. yes, i did. because i tot maybe he did have broken up wif his gf, and i might stand a chance. ahh, who knws. so i just gamble and replied. he didnt replied back till late night. i went into his fb. and his dp is still with his gf. hmm, havent bresk rite? idk y he txtd me. ok, maybe as fre. so we txted fr almost an hr. till guys strted out with theor stupid sweetalk. i dun like really. naik meluat aku, he said tht he still love me, he miss me, he wanna mit me soon. and phuck him okay. he and his gf is like one yr alr! omg. he sucha playboy. grr. and he ask me > u maseh ade number gf i ke? -.- of course i would say no. i knw why. he's scared i might spill the beans to his gf. im not kpo nor do i want them to break. bt really,, he have went over the limit dude. i pity his gf pls. he txted me repeatdly, till now. i didnt reply. if i were to reply, imma bitch huh. yes i knw. thts y i didnt reply. guys are jerks,as always.

heloo. :) today very awhsome, as alwys wen i meet them. :) supposedly be meeting both aisyah and wani as well. bt last minit, plan cock up lar. haix . sedih buluh. bt its ok. ade lain hari. tapi, im schooling soon, again:( ok wtv. and soo, received zu txt at 6 plus saying tht she hav arrived sg. so, ya, i wake up uh. and received una txt at 930 saying tht she is still at her hometown, and might be late >< and soo, i met zu and era first at jurong around 12. and, damn, we waited fr around 45 minit,before we can reach our destination.:( ah nehmind, sekali sekale whutt. -.- and so, the four of us tapau-ed food and headed straight to jurong west swimming pool. woopwoop. the swimming pool fun pls. just tht, i think thy shud add a few more slides. slides satu jer. ape feel dok. grr. :( ah wtv. everyone was excited, because it was our first going there. oh wait, i think era and una yg paling excited.hahha. and soo, we strted our activities at the pool and played stupid games and played the slides repeatedly and swim a bit and go round and round the lazy river till 5. then, everyone tired alr, including myself huh. eyes red2 alr. ear cannt hear anything alr. leg cramp alr. ceh wtf, bnyak complain plak. heh. and oh, thy siap-ed soo long :( i finish bath , da tukar, da sikat rambut, drg blum abes mandi lagi.sedih aku tunggu drg pat changing room mcm loner. -.- bleah. headed to westmall, to have our late late night dinner. we ate and chit-chat till 7 plus. and then, una went home earlier. hmm, idk why. maybe.....ok no maybe. ah, and soo, i spent another hr wif era & zu. and i guess we have make a fool out of ourself. haahhahha-.- really sia. ok wtv. we separated at 8 plus. sayangs mereka semue. yay. headed to one of the food court to meet mum, and eat. and basically, my mum have to hear to my stories fr the day whut. heheh. sampai satu pmpn ni kate--serius nya adik bobal. relax. ahhahahahah. wtf. maner ade aku serius

heloo. i frgt to post avt last week. last week, met farain at bishan. and headed straight to farrer park to met mum and azrul. had our mini lunch there. and headed to buy kl gangster movie tickets. saap, pertama kali azrul belanjaaaa! >< ape lagi, take advantage uh. heheehhe. and omg omg, the movie was awhsome pls. awhsome to the max. i mean, aaron aziz alr so ccol. ady putra lagi buat cerita tu power.as a matter of fact, zizan tak perlu. hhaha, bt ok, i like him . hehhe. aha sofi jikan pun powwer. ehhehe. semue la. except syamsul . tak minat la. and omg too many thing happen inside the cinema and on tht day. family soo kecoh. ah as always. went to eat like three times in just one day. less than 8 hrs?>< headed to mustaffa centre and shop till around 11? went home, saap, semer flat >< and ohh, i hope and well i guess farain did had a grt day wif my family. wells, we talk alot. bt, communication is the key to trust n happinez whut :)

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watched this just now. abe kalau crite nie tak kelakr, aku ttp tgk sampai abes? ah bole la. part first not bad. part mark lee, hah, tak logic daaa. -.-

heloo. abe kalau aku baru satu hari, da boring dudok uma? hahahahha. eh no way aku boring. bangun tido, saap, kul 2. hehhe. trus, saap, computer sampai 6. lol. perangai buruk. heheheh. went work just now. haix. makin irritatink budak kecik yg aku ajar ni. haix. makin jahat. makin tak dengar kate. tapi, makin cute lolzx. ah da abes keje, balik je, saap, makan . da kenyang, saap, computer. hehehehh. ceh post tak perlu eh.

hi. today is father days. ok i dun care much la. bt i will automatically be reminded as fb is soo full wif father days wish. hmm. so..... happy fathers day to whichever dad of mine. out of the three of u, none. i mean , none is useful at least. maybe u all shuldnt even be in my mum life. for my biological dad, pfft. happy fathers day. i guess its imp fr me to wish tht. well if not because of u, there wouldnt be any nur shamira bte abdul aziz kan? ya exactly. wtv to ur life.i just hope u would pray fr me and bro . wish us succes pls. and pls help me seek justice. if u will then yes u r my dad. the dad which i need to acknowledge. ohh bt wait. it will never happen. hahah. hidup kau sendiri tak terurus. pfft. g la jage diri pat dalam -.-

hi. went to mendaki yest wif mum. had tuisyn before tht, and alhamdulilah i have gotten myself 30bucks, at least. amin. and headed to bedok to meet mum. went to mendaki fr school's fees. no way are we gonna pay. such a huge a amount, wer to carik :( so now I just gonna pray hard thts its gonne be succesful so as i will have 100 percent subsidy :) then headed to int and eat around 6pm. shop till 8. then eat again!hahahaha. lol. we are always Hungry. >< the next day, went to do my ezlink. bt cannt. idk y:( sedih bulu. bgn pagi2 abe tkle. :(.met mum at gmbak and eat. headed home and a pil family jokes and talking . bro went to karoke at 11pm . supposedly bro wanted to blanja wayng bt i gt tuisyn next day. soo cnt la. pasha ungu will at expo. wah wah wah. maybe going. hopes tuision end early. heheeh. went to cotton on earlier and bought the flower slipper at only 7dole. woots. ori price was 29. lucky i wait sale. lol. at last, bought the pants i want also. nyeheheh. k la. nak tdo. nanti tuisyn :/

as days paz by, i find myself to hav change , like tremendously change . and i dun knw why. i guess its the people around me which influence my thoughts and hence i became a bit too sensitive. i gt easily jealous . of certain people happinez. i find myself to b vry cruel thou. i mean, we shudnt be jealous of othrs hapinez. well i cnt cntrol tz thoughts rite .bahh. phuck. and idk. i cn cry at almost evrytink. i just realize tat i hav kinda gt a fragile hart. why why why. bt aniways i dun care alr. i dont want to hate my life at evry single thing. :( friends- i gave up wif certain pple. i guess my poly fren are awhsome,fr nw. bt nah, i stil love sec mates. relationshp- amazingly , there isnt any guy tat had caught my hart, yet. maybe my hart is nt botherd. ^^^ money - vm uses my money nearly 50 . so phuck vm k. bt i will try to hav as my tuition to gain back all the moneys. :) and ...... ah there are way too much things in my mind.i need a break ! :(

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saap >< this week are just way too hetic fer me. went work at 10am-1 the other day. 1-6, school all the way. thou its not lecture. we have alr started out wif our window display production. Nadia and i started shop fer our stuffs. and painted our platform. and ended everything at 6. happy much as 1/3 of our job is done. headed to big bookshop at clementi to buy the remaining paints. and.... i fainted there :( idk y. maybe i guess im just too tired. bt wait, i didint knw im soo weak. >< phuck. ahhahaha. and nadia was like superrr kanchiong. bt lucky her and lucky me , i was ok in less than 5 minit. woots. im still strong. ahak. next day, was the worst day ever! i guess. both nadia and me were heppy as we were done painting our platform whutt. when we arrive school, we couldnt find our platform at alll. and we both nak nangis already. :( and it suddenly occured to me tht maybe , maybe my classmate painted my platform into theirs. wah at tht moment, my blood boils already. and i go to the workshop and find my friend. and really,i mean really, thy were the one who painted it into theirs. wah, on the spot siol, i cried! hahahahha! phuck me la. i cried two times, in year one poly, in just the first month! >< hahha, and really its not my fault i cried. penat2 aku paint, org paint balik kerje penat aku. woah. then, they very baik la, thy go paint back , and buy paint. but ah we need to pay them back at 30 bucks siol. when supposedly we no need pay! grr. k la, i hate th day. hahaha, bt aniways its not tht bad. i finish the backdrop. and we had a grt conversation wif yilong >< yayyy. ahh i love my kelasmate la senang ckp. :):):):)

saaap! this week. is full of chaos as always. woots. vm gonna end soon, in a week:) pretty much excited fer holiday. yayy. handed up my 10 sketches and my hello kitty idea was chosen. and ohh, i love both aisyah and ayrie. they like literally went under my block and pass me some of their sketches. omgee i love them, really. wells, not all of my friend would bothered to help me in a last minit hmwrk, kan. heheh. sayng drg. and headed to school. wif nadia and rachel as usual. idea was chosen and bla3. not bothered to go detail abt school. >< busy schedule fer school. bt who cares. work still on. and ohhh, im proud of myself. lol. i wakeup early and went to work at 9 am w/o fail :) yayy. and ohhh phuck vm, it wasted lots and lots and lots of my money.

and when i look at how succsful u are, i got all pissed off. i dont knw hw you can get watever you like in this world. kalau kau berdoa sekalipun, kenapa Allah masih tlg kau? kenapa masih bagi kau ape yang kau nak? mira tak phm, sumpah tak phm. lepas ape yg da terjadi, u got away just like dat. kalau ade seribu ornang mcm kau pat dunia ni, semua perempuan da mati. semua perempuan akan ada trauma. semua perempuan akan jijik dengan laki, tapi aku tak mcm perempuan2 tu. aku tau aku tak selemah mane. aku tetap akan bocorkan rahsia kau. kau sabar. aku bagi kau enjoy skg. aku nak tgk, sape yang berjaya nanti. kau ke aku. jangan harap kau boleh hidup bahagia. 5 tahun. huh 5 tahun siol. bukan 5 hari. aku tak tau macam mane kau bole tgk muke aku tanpa rase bersalah. wheres ur hart sia? fck you la, fck fck fck :( to be honest, i dun even knw wat to do. :(:(:(:(:( berilah mira petunjuk, ya Allah.

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hi. these three days , i havent been able to sleep , like early. i slept like after 6am. wells, i never blame anyone. since i want to succeed and preove some people wrong, i have gt to do it. i thank god fr everything ive gt now. really, syukur alhamdulilah. i think i have gt an awhsome life. an awhsome family. i wish tht incident didnt even happened in my life. i swear, if it didnt happened, imma happy girl. really happy. i dont knw how im gonna face certain people, in this condition. bt thts not important. most important, is i dont even knw how to face ALLAH. thou i hope he would forgive me. its been a long time since grandpa past away. and now, today, i thought of him again. i really miss him. the only person in this world tht understand me and would fight fr me. yess, my blog is full of his name. :( i hope by doing this, he realized tht i really need him. i hope he would just somehow appear in my life once again. to be honest, i dont have anyone to talk to, to pour out my problems. when i saw those children talking & joking around wif their dad, im really jealous. yes, soemtimes i wonder y god put me in such difficult test. just let me meet my dad once . can? i wanna feel wats it like to talk to them too. :> bt wtv it is, im thankful fr my wonderful mum n brother. w/o them, im might just collapsed. things havent been going smoothly fer me. i didnt get the course i want. i got played. i got fcked. i got hearbroken by certain guys. i gt backstabbed. wtv to life. seriusly. just gimme my grandpa. i will be happy.

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saaaap! were out wif fara, and he suddenly msg , like again. weel, he did text me a few time since last few weeks. amd yes, i didnt reply. well, one of the reason i was busy. bt well, busy is not an excuse. as after tht, still can msg whuttt. actually i dun even knw why i didnt reply. like really i dun knw.hmm, and i dun knw why i reply-ed his txt just knw. i rly dun knw. and wells, things strt out like how i expected. guys, usually strted contacting back wif a girl because of tht same reason hor. and phuck me. im always an option fr anoder. yes, i read his fb. he said tht he was dump by anoder girl. and due to tht, he like me back. ya sia, im just anoder option he had. bt no, im not tht dumb anymore. i love my single life. i can stare at any guy i want. i can talk with whoever i want. i can flirt with anybody. i can like just do anything, rite? wtv to love sia. i remember last 3 wiks, i met like my so called admirer. ya, tht guy. the one who say he lov me, i love him. phuck. i saw him in th train , like alone. bt phuck la, im like invicible or wat siia. he just walked past me and ignored me. worst still, he sat just across me. tht moment i realized, all guys are bustard. like really :( he didnt even botherd saying hi, or smile? wtf. i just dun knw wat to say abt these relationship thingy. being played twice is like soo not funny uh. lucky enuf thy not yet my boyfriend. lucky enuf my ex were an awhsome guy. so im lucky tht i didnt get hurt tht much.bt wtv it is, really nt bothered abt love. really.

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saap! had a great day today.went to school wif rachel, as usual and she not late today. k bla3. then , after school, went to meet farain at toa payoh. supposedly, we going spore flyer lorh. but, tsk, plan fked up de. k buhh. supposedly, watch cinema at toa payoh. buttt, da pecah rupe2nya. grr. and soo, we head down to westmall. such a place. haix but who cares al. arrived there like at 830pm. and had my breakfast plus lunch plus dinner at kfc. then head down to level 5, and watch KUNGFU PANDA 2. omgeeee. such an awhsome movie!!! and we both cant stop laughing siolzx. hahaha, i swear an awhsome movie. in an instant, my problems trus hilang. hehehe. thou, its like only 1hr30 min. :( bt whu cares. po looks sooo cute! no, in fact, all the animals are cute. khekhe. show ended around 11 plus. lepak till 12plus at wm. sian, the next morning both of us working at 7 lorh. haox. bt nehmind, i love the show. soo i dun mind. and oh, i love her fer always following me in last min plan :) hehe, unlike certain people lorh. tsktsk. next show: puss in boots pls. or teansformer. or green lantern. or xmen. or hangover . argh :(

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saap! this week lesson were totally fun. yeah. butt.... must strt drawing already. gona die soon. lol. k wtv to school. monday was independant studies. so, we all went to school like at 12. and i went to configure my lappy. head down to rhd studio, and did our assignmnet till late 5pm. around 1, a mini celebration of matheww badae. and the otheres went to mcd to bought lunch fer everyone. head down to library and had our mini research. and there was a bbq for all rhd students. the three of us didnt went due to not wanting to came home late till 12am :( wednesday-rachel emo the whole dayyy. i and nad were so fcked up. because we thought its about us. hahaha, and nad were really annoyed lor. she said : chinesse also like to emo? i tot malay only. hahahaha. epic. had our mini discussion fer our next assignment. i die lorh. 10 drawings??!!! i die sia. tsk tsk. thurs, had our consulation period. and my lecture say nad n my idea were childish. saddedening siol. i mean, my idea were to have a pink graffiti as our backdrop. then display make-up n accessories in a doll house. childish meh? thts girlish only whutttt. and must think some more la now. haix. now who can help me convey my idea, through drawing ????!!!!!! grr

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